7.30 at night.
althou cant say its already night time since the sun still playfully shining on our dry terrain.
just woken up from few hours nap. slept too long hours.
suddenly thinking what will I do for next week.
have a week off. A WEEK! YIPPIEE!
maybe im the only person who'd be so chirpie not having shifts for a week. geez, deep inside im still that spoiled brat! haha!
worked 10 hours this weekend. yesterday wasnt that much of a disaster. Today was kinda edgy. that team leader was working! She made me fidgety everytime she's in charge. I call her the bitch. HAHA. the other girl was saying to me to ef-off what the team leader said. "just ignore what she said". Hm, made me wonder if everyone holds grudges against her. I cudnt care less thou. I, now, chose to ef-off everything.
Anyway,
Jamie said music plays a mind trick, intoxicates your mind. so true.
Was just listening to alanis morissette. My mind suddenly thinking about loads of crap. But conscience took over and switched alanis to Queen.
Aah, I love Queen.
I'm, now, lovin music wif some uplifting beat and lyrics.
today's music is off the list thou. Those so-called R&B HipHop are just noise! but once in a while listening to some of them dont hurt. Tapi tetep, not that often. My song choice really has changed a lot. is that weird?
you know what.. summer really is here. I need some down time at the beach. not any beach thou. I avoid those crowds sun-bathing on st.kilda or along great ocean road. just a nearby beach with less crowds. hm it shud be fun. just me, paulo coelho, my brown hat and that huge black sunnies. bliss!
kapan ya kapan? hm plan plan plan!
PS: on a rainy thursday night, I saw Santa parking his car on the side of flinders street. He came early this year and WITH A CAR! that fat-bearded granpa ditched his reindeers since northpole has recruited a different kinda santa for downunder. haha
gebleg.
{music plays a mind trick}
days of my life: the updates
forgot to update, Finally bought my own iPod video!!!
had a dilemma whether to get the 30 or 80 GB. but then decided to get only the 30G since it may be too much for a 80G.
spent 2 days finding the leather case. went back and forth, refund and exchanged items from JB Hifi to Kikki.K. then made up my mind just to get the PINK (yes, pink!!) leather case from JB. Its very girli innit? well, they hav only 2 colors, black and pink. black looked so plain.
While Kikki has many colors, the types are not of those I prefer. Love the red color!!
I'm selling it thou. Anyone interested? I put it up on ebay. check it out =D
Btw, read a blog yesterday. cant remember which or whose blog is it but it mentioned something about "pretentious postings". And it got me. What makes postings to be called pretentious? Could it be that to some people's mind the postings are to be called pretentious but to the blog's writer not? I may walked only to certain personal blogs and not of those "critiques and reviews" blogs. is the latter what you called pretentious? I dont get it.
OK first prolly to ask, Whats pretentious, really?
*source: Mirriam-Webster
so, What makes a blog a pretentious blog?
off the topic,
it's 6.30-ish on wednesday morning. Watching sunrise on se7en. Bushfires keep on spreading throughout nation. The news focuses on tassie now. Know whats so sad about the news just now? It threats not only townships nearby but also the koalas colony. the news showed a koala walk near the news anchor trying to escape the bushfire metres behind. It looked so washed up and tired. At a time like this, I wish I din discontinued my HSI membership :( the poor koalas. so brown, so tired, so sad...
Dreadful smokey weather also happened in Melbourne a few days back. They said its cos of the bushfire hours away from the city. Its like foggy but with deadly heat. its frickin unbelievable. You hav to be here to experienced it. Kinda scary too. Climate changes here made us fidgety.
Its sorta like Jakarta on rainy season with the inevitable flood.
and people often ask if its the effect of global warming?
things musical
had too much caffeine for one day. two cups of coffee in fresh windy morning and a dilmah tea at night.
both eyes sore. head's scorching pain on the right. migraine? maybe.
curiga? ganti kacamata.
hmm.. what will it be this time? dior? HAHA ntar ya.. crap dollars duluu!! =P
anyway....
almost forgotten enya. may it be is so soothing. but thats just enya.
music, a journey down the memory lane... seeing vivid visuals with our eyes closed.
Coldplay and Queen. the opposite rhythm.. brought a similar emotion.
between love and hate. it's the memory that I prefer not to remember.
whilst enya.
it's about what already happened. looking back. mixed emotions. was it 2-3 years ago? A child that I was. A child with a bucket of sweets after a night of trick'O-treating.
I was born to love you put a smile when I was walking down coventry street on my way home today. We will rock you brought a brave face and confidence before entering the strangers land. See how music can easily influence emotions?
hmm honestly none to write. mind went suddenly blank.
eyes really sore. eyedrops all gone.
when everyone else's assleep. my iTunes shuffling enya, jamie cullum, nat king cole and norah jones. the tunes of the night.
Hate it.
made me see things in my mind.
I can hear myself think.
thats when everything goes chaotic.
when all the babbling and idiotic scenarios came to live.
it cant stop shuffling.
I wish it not to stop.
thats why.
uneasy heart
suffocated.
feel like crying.
thot it can easily forgotten. painless.
i was wrong...
made too many mistakes.
feel like quiting.
can i?
incompetent.
spoiled.
slow.
positive thoughts dont help.
keep the acts together.
performance!
embarrased.
ashamed.
one mistake over another.
neverend.
intolerable. it shouldnt.
at a time like this,
bury deep beneath the ground
hidden.
the underdog's affair.
the keyword..
incompetent.
no inspiring moment nor words to say.
just plain, incompetent.
CHABELLE
chanel cole and daniel belle.
My Australian IDOL ever!!! theyre so cute together. althou they broke up now, but they still work together for their album wif Spook entitled Dusk Sessions.
Chanel has -i'd say- a very kooky character... in a good way. and Daniel belle? well, the man has his charm.
we were mad crazy about these two people back in 2004. Thats when they were the couple-to-be in the Idol deliria.
I was jes browsing around looking for chanel, you know, the fashion mogul.
and there it was on third row.. the name chanel cole.
I CANT BELIEVE SHE STILL EXIST!
in the entertainment industry that is.
love the website too! it's so CHANEL!
the music is a bit like nouvelle vague, but not really. She said its trip hop. whatever that means. but i like it. it's still pretty steep tho, for the cd. 30 frickin bucks at HMV online. bah.
but i'll get the CD somehow, in due time.
wud be fanfrickintastic if someone wanna buy me one? *grin*
numb3rs
one straight up.. a double shotdown. whatever that means.
get all fired up for jes a glimpse second then math came knock me down.
mediocrity becomes an irritating tag.
the gate has closed. ergo, its final.
i guess you cant really change your capabilities to the max when it's already reach the maximum limit.
if you get what i mean.
nothing else to do 'cept push the performance to the top, since thats what they always look for.
then, math wont have affect on anything no more.
{theworldofmerrymen}
why can't men keep their johnny in their pants? why they can have an excuse for a "midlife crisis"? some say that men in their 40s are at their best. ergo, the midlife crisis excuse becomes reasonable. but why the sudden thought?
Although I cant really spice things up based on infotainment "facts", but even the most religious man can shock us wif this kinda stuff. He might have his reasons which we outsiders wont know about. and again, it aint really against the religion rules but since we're now living in a world that accept only monogamous relations, thus, knowing the act is sorta against our conscience. you know what i mean?
update:
now you must know what i mean by men cant keep their johnny in their pants?! an old man politician back in the tanah merah land has his own version of paris hilton's "THE movie!". FYI, it aint infotainment, it's a newsflash! I mean, how many politicians we've heard throughout the years having the same issue? Cmon, the most famous one, Bill Clinton and Monica whatsername? HELLOO??!
things
kata si mbak ini bisa2 gue obsesi sama si penulis populer itu. si mbak ini bilang gue ngidolain dia. dan emang betul, gue ngidolain dia! HAHA ngarep bisa dapet aja sdikit kemampuan dia.. in everything. dia udah bisa dibilang achieve banyak banget, dan umur dia segue!!
gimana gak salut skaligus ngiri kalo umur sgue, kerja belom lama, eeeh, naek pangkat!! halah.
iya bener neng, gue ngidolain dia banget! nyehehhee.. parah nih
jgn ampe kelewat batas aja kali ya?! parah. parah.
kalo ngliat dari muka doi, hmm dia kliatan over confident.. seems obnoxious, really. kinda intimidate me quite much. hehe padahal, cuma dari foto?! pff.. aneh. gue yg aneh. kenal juga nggak!!
yah.. begitulah.
udah nyebutin dia berkali2 disini. jadi reference, diomongin terus. dari awal ampe akhir. dari dulu ampe dia yg sekarang. hmm, stalker? nggak juga lah. sbenernya kata2 dia byk yg nyantol di gue. ergo, all the credit refer back to si penulis populer ini. althou never mention the name. haha.
ternyata ya...
lebih enakan klo sminggu penuh dgn kerja.. biarpun shift juga cuma 3-4 hours per day. at least have something to do. yeah, whinging like madcow krn kecapean kmaren better than klo sminggu diisi dgn bengong2 wandering like stray cat di city gitu kan? tapi emang, badan rontok! haha beneran. capek. but at the end of the day, im quite satisfied wif what i do now. at least, itll give me time to think on what's next in line.
anyhoo.. the next 2 weeks i'd be having more spare days off work! feel pretty good about it thou. time to relax. haha thats why i so love casual jobs!! HAHA
have 2 days off tomoro and thurs. plan to go DFO tomorooo! yes yes. it's shopping time! although we aint celebratin xmas, but the offers in those shops are hard to resist. HAHA I know I dont need more clothes, or shoes, or bags, or anything else really. I know I'm just wasting the papers for shitless stuffs. it's always an excuse for us to shop to lift up our moods isnt it? you know, the retail therapy thing? HAHA what an excuse?!
got news from home. my dearest cousin gave birth to a baby boy!! meh.. have lots nephews and nieces now eh? pff.. seems AM THAT OLD yaaa?! i never meet most of them. cos im here when they were born. Saw piccies, but babies dont really goo me much when see them from picts. HAHA yeah, i'm not so motherly after all. *grin*
but i wanna see 'em. everyone kept saying "she's so big now" "She's so lucuuu, cuteee, tembem!" "he's like his daddy, putih tembem!" HAHA
serius ya, GAK KEBAYANG! =D
i remember babysit 2 of my youngest cousins dozen years ago. thats why i'm so close wif them. but not these newborns. I dont even know how they look like, really. I miss those kiddies so much! their cheeky and sometimes annoying antics. wif questions and nagging that sometimes non-stop. HAHA. bisa ngangenin juga ternyata makhluk2 cilik itu ya!
yowes ah.
it's my day offs tomorooo! now i have time to blog. =D
OC is on.. story's kinda drag.
{dreams}
the word has been haunting me for the past week.
It started on a blog
a question about the purpose in life "apa yang kita inginkan dalam hidup ini?"
berlanjut ke serial drama yg lagi gue tonton when the lead character asked herself this "What's My Dream?"
And today,
I read a book.
I opened the first page, and there it says "aware of our personal calling"
Yes, It's Coelho that says it.
"We don't all have the courage to confront our own dream"
dan langsung aja gue tersenyum2 sendiri realising, Gue banget! hehe
mungkin itu yang bugs me stelah kepikiran tentang smua ini.
Yah maybe the thought's been there for ages but my mind chose to locked it inside rather than saying it out loud.
Honestly, I'm no different to the blogger dude and that drama character.
The one question persists.
What do I want, what are my dreams?
As if having no dreams is like having no goal.
you're walking in zigzags without a clear destination.
when thinking hard is a must.
but all i see are only blurry smokes! not even options to cause any dilemmas.
the dreams not yet visible and time keeps on ticking.
Surely I cant stop on one spot and not moving til finding the dream now can I?
Since time keeps on going, so will life.
althou it'd be better if I see a vivid image although far ahead.
You know what, I kept telling myself that i'm a dreamer. Tapi, kok sekarang spertinya mimpi2 itu pointless ya? They seem insignificant.
Coelho juga bilang, there are obstacles.
Gue kayaknya can figure out what those are, tapi stlh dipikirin skali, dua kali, tiga kali.. they seem to be irrelevant.
Seneng kali ya those people who feel content wif their lives. Knowing what they want and what theyre good at. Prolly, theyre really living life.
nyeh. udah lah. pusing
signing my own death sentence
yep! the past two weeks seem like a month to me. for those not in the know.. yes, i was stupid enuf to take 2 jobs. VERY STUPID INDEEDY!
at first, i was too paranoid of boredom attack during summer and the first job din gimme that many shifts to fill in the spare days. ERGO, took the interview for the 2nd job, and yes.. nailed it smoothly!
now,
kinda have the feeling that i mightve diggin my own grave! slave myself on labor work. pegel linu nyeri rontok2 bgini badaaaaaaaaaaaaaaann!
oh you know what, the 1st job actually had management changes so they add more rosters for all staffs! the higher managers are all changed and more strict. G-damn! i cant get the flexibility for work hours like it used to be. double-sheeeeeet! the new manager sorta forced me to work whenever she wanted me to work.
but any of this din really get me until yesterday when i have to work at 2 places in 1 day and MONDAY was a bloody nightmare to work. PEOPLE CONSTANTLY CAME TO SHOP ON MONDAY!! dont they know about WEEKEND SHOPPING DAY EH? 4 hours nonstop scanning their monthly groceries shopping, all those cartons of coke, litres of milk and juices! udah kyk barbelan aja di gymnya ade rai. YA TUHANKU!
dun get me wrong,
i have my doubts.
whether or not to continue working in two places at once like this.
i do have my doubts. cmon, it's me we're talking.
although these doubts keep buggin me constantly, but the newbie tag always gave me the reality check. I mean, I just started working for God sake?!
hopefully, I'll get used to all these in mere weeks. when my body starts to adjust with these changes in my daily routines and it wont ache ever again. haha!
truth is,
I dunno if I wanna keep doing this for months and months. need to get a proper job soon. i mean, whats the use having to slave myself for an extra 2 years of academic years to be a checkout service assistant? I dont need an extra 2 years for that, do I?!
but like I always kept in mind for a couple of years now,
I'm no quitter.
although all around tastes bitter. I will whinge (alot!), but wont quit.
just need to keep that in mind, once again i suppose.
what doesnt kill me makes me stronger.
gue pengen sperti dia ya. everyone, everything around him could take him down in mere minutes with all the things he's doing.. but still.. that makes him lot stronger to stand up and move forward.
he's very ambitious in living his life.
he's an optimist.
are those the ingredients to success?
you know, in life.
ah ngemeng doank sih gue.
udah brapa hari ini gue resah banget. tapi gak tau knapa..
mo cerita juga gak tau apa yang mesti diceritain.
gak jelas begini...
ah sudahlah!
climate change has been the hot topic these couple of days.
yeah, salju turun menjelang musim panas?
bushfire melalap abis sisi yang lain?
keatas dikit, badai.. hail... ngancurin rumah?
yang lain, tsunami and earthquake berbarengan?
dan mereka yang di tempat kompetisi, ber uh-ah ngeliat waves tinggi yang katanya keren banget itu!
pff.. gila memang.
Achtung Achtung!
Minggu, 05 November 2006, 06:03:37
Rakyat Merdeka. Tentara nasional Indonsia (TNI) terus menyempurnakan pengamanan di Istana Bogor terkait kunjungan Presiden Amerika Serikat George W Bush ke Istana Bogor.
Berbagai ujicoba pengamanan terus dilakukan, termasuk skenario pengkondisian Kota Bogor saat Bush tiba di Kota Bogor.
Menurut rencana, saat Bush tiba di Bogor nanti berbagai frekuensi udara digital sengaja dihilangkan. Hilangnya saluran frekuensi udara telekomunikasi di sekitar lokasi persinggahan Bush selama 10 jam. Sudah barang tentu jaringan selular (handphone) dan digital lainnya seperti radio dan internet akan di-jamer (memblokade frekuensi sementara) sejak pukul 12.00 WIB.
Nah, khusus jaringan internet jika pengguna tetap memaksa menggunakannya akan mendapatkan risiko tinggi. Lalu lintas data tiba-tiba akan overload, tak menutup kemungkinan server bisa jebol. Sementara ujicoba pengamanan yang sudah dilakukan di antaranya menerbangkan helikopter Super Puma milik Angkatan Udara Halim Perdana Kusuma dan Atang Senjaya.
Sudah dua hari ini, helikopter yang dikabarkan berfungsi membawa tamu VVIP itu selalu mengitari Istana Bogor dan mencari lokasi landasan. Sementara kemarin, heli buatan Perancis itu sudah pada tahap ujicoba landasan.
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Lucunya,
Masyarakat Indonesia udah berkoar2 penuh esmosi dengan datengnya Bush. Kita, sdikit yang pintar dengan kata-kata. Kita lebih pintar main fisik daripada perang dengan kata. Disuruh berkomentar, yang keluar malah anjing.. taik.. bacot.. etc. keliatan kan status kita dimata dunia?
Lucunya,
Kita selalu iri dengan orang yg punya kuasa lebih tinggi. tanpa mau berusaha to have good clean competition, to exceed them. yang ada? Ngemeng wae lah!
Lucunya,
aparat2 pemerintah.. kalang kabut kebakaran jenggot wira wiri bogor jakarta. Datengnya Bush udah kayak datengnya Queen of England aja. tsk tsk. Semua kecanggihan2 yang diumpetin langsung dikeluarin dan di beberin ke public. duuhh, ternyata kita punya alat2 dan resources secanggih2 itu yaaa?!?
hihihi gw bener2 penasaran.
What will happen on that D day.
another stupid lovesong
Its one thing to ask why we break up
Have you ever
Wondered why it is we fall in love
Can you tell me
Do you know what it is you're looking for
What do we need
Can you tell me why I care
How is it that we hear
That voice that says i want you there
Thanks you've been fuel for thought
Now im more lonely than before
But thats okay i've just read and made another stupid love song
Thanks you've been fuel for thought
Now im more lonely than before
But thats okay i've just read and made another stupid love song
In a single moment you might be perfect
And sit
In a window of my life
But how much how much more will I get to see?
What would i strive to hide
Now there will be no compromise
So take it in your stride
I will leave you now with a smile
>Amiel
The song was played nonstop on radio. 3 years ago.
gue inget pertama kali denger lagu ini lagi shopping and that catchy tune "another stupid love song" caught my attention.
Went back home and started googling like mad! Asked my housemates at the time if theyve heard of it. pas udah nemu bajakannya (hehe, teteup!), it played nonstop as well in the wells house. hehehe..
jadi kangen.
lagunya biarpun tentang breakup. tapi it has its own way telling about breaking up. yep. breakup can lead you to becoming famous, amiel is just one example.
hey, di indonesia kita punya GLENN gitu loh?!?! hehehe
sayangnya, she's just another onehit wonder. Amiel just vanished to thin air. no one heard of her after that stupid lovesong.
tapi seneng juga stlh dengerin lagunya lagi..
hehe
buat temanku yg lagi patah hati dan mencari rebound (biarpun dia gak baca blog ini)... "just read and made another stupid love song" ya bok.
and who knows, you'll be another "Glenn" di indonesia? versi hardcore rock/punk mungkin? hihihi.. :p
{msg to Dee: hihihi know who im talkin bout kan?? the dude you've been avoiding on YM!! temen lu tuuuh! :p phew dont let him know about this bloggie aight! lol}
national gambling day!
yeah. for those who knows about Melburnian's culture, this coming tuesday is Melbourne Cup! a public holiday for some.
yep. none other than the horse racing day where its not just about the gambling, but also looking drop dead gorgeous on that green carpet.
yes yes. the hats are out. the chic and the fab are everywhere. drink, get drunk, go nuts. It's excused! hehe
I dont exactly know what it's all about. aside from the gorgeous looks and the gambling thing. What's the fuss wif melbourne cup? It's like the nation stops to take a glimpse of the race and all the glamorous fashionistas.
Heck, I do that too!
everywhere I look are those people wif their floral dresses and fancy hats. It's like, a party for everyone!!
although funny thing, some people might get so cynical about this event. I know that from their tone when speaking about this spring race. HAHA
jealous cos cant get in? Maybe.
I dont really mind about those people look super nice everywhere in the city (well,who wud?). but I really really really mind when they all drunk in midday or before 9 PM!
and today is the preliminary for that day!
everyone was already drunk. AND IT WAS ONLY 5 PM! Helllooo?!
tsk.
Freehugging
udah denger beritanya for a while now. but i always thot this free hugs campaign thing was originally from NYC!! dunno why, i always thot it was made by some dude in the chaotic city life in NYC. but NO! it's an original downunder! made in sydney, pitt street mall to be exact! hmm, like bourke mall but with loads more crowds? :p
Thanks to youtube, what was once a simple innocent act of free hugs.. it now becomes a worldwide campaign.
He said
Everyone has problems and for sure mine haven't compared. But to see someone who was once frowning, smile even for a moment, is worth it every time.
From then on, the freehugging became inspirational to people all over the world!
Suddenly, I remembered the movie "Pay It Forward" starring Haley Joel Osment, Kevin Spacey, Helen Hunt. "Sometimes The Simplest Idea Can Make The Biggest Difference"
After watching the free hugs campaign in youtube, i kept wondering... apa mungkin ini bisa dilakuin di Jakarta?? Kota yang penuh curiga satu dengan yg lain. Since kita gak punya public space sperti sydney punya pitt street, mungkin gak di mall2 gitu ada orang di jakarta yang put a massive sign that sez "FREE HUGS" (or translated: PELUK GRATIS? hmm kok agak2 gimana gitu ya? LOL). Mungkin gak ada orang yg nyamperin dia and actually give sincere hugs. not to rob his/her pocket. ato worse, "grepe2" gak jelas? Duh! moral moraaall! tapi MUNGKIN gak sih ada orang yg beneran give sincere hugs to whoever yg pasang sign itu? say, di sembarang mall di indo. Be it PS, PIM, ato sampe Metropolitan Bekasi?
Gue ngebayanginnya,
first, people stare at him/her constantly. mikir, ni orang gila apa ya? ih mo ngapain sih?
kedua! "nyehehehe, peluk ahh.. -ganteng/cantik? -dompetnya tebel?"
ketiga, klo pun sukses dan beneran massive crowds appreciate the initial intention of freehugging, gue yakin.. gak berapa lama bakalan masuk tivi dan protes sana sini bakalan berkicau. *maaf* tapi pasti ada protes dari pihak religi2 yang mungkin kurang sreg dengan hugging bukan sesama muhrim. *skali lagi maaf*
Tapi it'd be surprising if someone can actually pull this off di jakarta.
It's gonna be shocking for sure. hehe..
I love the original idea though.
sekarang?
hmff terlalu komersil. Karena si "Juan Mann" udah terlalu terkenal, tapi hopefully his sincerity still in place just as he first started 2 years ago.
----- hugssss
end of a journey, beginning of another..
stelah 20 taun sekolah, sekolah, tugas, exams.. akhirnya slesai. today's the last day of my postgrad degree. stlh telat 1 smester krn males.. hehe.. akhirnya beres tuntas kehidupan akademik gue.
tapi kok sedih ya?
sekarang smuanya serba gamang
gue mesti ngelangkah kemana sekarang ya?
sering denger kan ada orang2 yang ambil a year off doing whatever s/he pleases. Go abroad, get some work, or just dozed off on booze and smokes, or whatever. As they said, the world is your oyster.. and that one year off is just about the ryte time to do it.
question now is, should i take a year off, doing nothing?
well not exactly doing nothing, but nothing significant. getting some casual earnings, here and there. a year off without responsibility and burden on my shoulders.
Tapi tapi tapi...
hmff..
why today come so early?
Maybe I'll go travelling for a year,
finding myself or start a career.
Maybe I'll move back home and pay off my loans,
working nine to five answering phones.
I don't want to get up, just let me lie in,
leave me alone, I'm a twenty something.
Maybe I'll just fall in love that could solve it all,
philosophers say that that's enough,
there surely must be more.
Friday, I'm in L...L....L???
It's friday. It's raining. Suddenly feel like singin in the rain. Fiddling iTunes. Scroll the wheel from playlist to playlist.
I'm serenaded by Jamie.
I'm happy again
I'll walk down the lane
With a happy refrain
I'm singing in the rain
Daba do... do do do do
Do da do.
timecapsule
konsepnya keren.
timecapsule
and i contributed a fun image there.
-- this is what i get after browsing for target market selection, eh?
tsk
tentang seseorang
kenapa sih orang itu gak nyadar that dia being pushy? nyebelin, tauk?!?! all this time, i still bite my tongue not to yell anything rude to you. considering elo few years my senior and honestly you dont seem to realize that you annoy people, esp. ME! i always try to be nice, but yesterday i had enuf. lo bisa plonga-plongo sa'karepmu, i leave you with only simple words. "udah ya, bye"
and again, with the plonga-plongomu yang terliat slalu misplaced!
My cuz met you once. I think she can handle you better than I do. =D It's tiring talking to you. sometimes I can be the queen of basa-basi, like most perempuan2 jawa diajarkan. but I cant even have a nice chat over coffee with you for an hour! My eyes kept looking out the cafe, watching people pass by. My mind desperately sending telephatic messages to any of them to rescue me. Jahat? Bodo!
Although meetings are casual. tapi di dunia maya ini aku gak bisa lari. lari kemana? appear offline cuma merugikan gue. lagipula, gw jg gak bisa cut this person off my circle. my bestie's family friend. imagine that!
Ugh! wish that dia leave me with all those pushy requests!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH if i can say it to this person's face. kamu ngganggu tau gak!
choaeyo!
sekali lagi, gw terbius sama fairytales di k-drama. memalukan! aib! klo si teman yang bilang.
itunes penuh dengan lagu2 yang liriknya gak gue ngerti. tapi satu kata yang slalu muncul di lirik2 lagu itu.. sarang
di indonesia kita punya yovie dan glenn dengan lirik2 cintanya. Kebayang kan gimana semua wanita di pelosok indonesia nangis sesunggrukan, bermimpi ke awang2 hanya denger untaian lirik2 indah mereka tentang cinta.
iya, sarang.
segitu uneasynya gue denger lagu yovie dan glenn. tapi saat kata2 itu gak jelas artinya di telinga gue, lagu2 tentang sarang gak pernah terlepas dari iPod dan iTunes gue. 24/7. sarang keeps on playing repeatedly til they becomes broken records to my ears.
yah sperti si temen bilang, virus korea efeknya dasyaat! lol
aib aib aib! :P
business development seminar
went to the business development seminar held by network 21 yesterday. It's not exactly what i expected. They talked alot about the business, about dreams, about you can achieve it if you just believe. Often we stand up from our seats and applause. applause to recognize the success of many people among us. Success for their believe, their efforts in making the business grow. Among those recognitions, most of them are still students. very young students.
I applaud them. They think further ahead from the binge drinking, binge clubbing and many others that most of uni students are well-known for.
I won't prejudged what network 21 is doing. It has good concept, but what i've gathered from meeting last night.. It works the opposite way of any corporate world. The main contribution to the business is the people skills. It sells its' people. People is the main ingredients. the amway products are just the sidedish. It grows enormously cos when you think about it, how many people in this world? in this city alone? 2 million at most? it's a networking business. People are part of the networking. they are the network. So you get what I mean.
Honestly, I felt really uncomfortable during the seminar. At first, i'm locked in to what the speaker says... an hour later.. i feel i'm in a church or a cult of somekind. I feel very uneasy in the situation. But it's my first time to ever join a seminar as such. Do other business seminars works in similar ways? If it is some kind of motivational seminar, i aint feel motivated. I feel I'm being preached. I feel they're brainwash me with this theorem that they all deeply believe. It's good that people are passionate in achieving their highest dreams. but i'm not that character in the crowd. It's not about overcoming fear nor being skeptical, but maybe my simple mind keep on telling me to taste the dirt before running into a quick fix. How bad the dirt may taste, at least I know whats going on out there. As now, i'm floating on air knowing nothing.
satu yang gue gak ngerti, kenapa selama seminar kita dicecer sama foto2 kesuksesannya si mitch sala. yang pergi ke USA berkali2 serasa ngesot ke pasar aja? Nginep di disney suite bak nya seorang terkenal? bersenang2 di chateau eropa layaknya imperial household? berkunjung ke seorang "teman" di hollywood, bertetanggaan dengan usher si rapper terkenal. What's the point? I know, you share to us that you've achieved more than you ever dreamt of. Tapi, kenapa? buat apa?
As I said, I wont prejudged. I just feel uneasy with your business development program. I'm, stupidly enough, too proud of being the one person that I am. Maybe it's what you called closed minded. Well, perhaps I am.
the Walt
never ever I have fun during a lecture. Last night was an exception. A guest lecturer from Walt Disney Australia came to our branding lecture. It was very interesting to know the history about the Disney empire and the branding mechanism they did to be that powerful in the world. It started down from a vision of one man to finally become the fundamental heritage of today's unbeatable brand in the entertainment industry. Also I come to know that miramax and abc are owned by Disney corporate and pulp fiction is DISNEY's highest grossing cinematic production! surprise, surprise.
What most interesting is that Disney has this technique to keep their animation characters alive for all generations. Whenever they have a product coming out in the market, they'll do huge push marketing. They'll market it in so many ways just to get it out there. After some period of time, say - a year, the product will be taken from the shelves and locked it back safely in "the vault" for the next 7 years to re-appear for future generation. This is their idea to keep the character - the brand - alive for all generations. I'm in awe!
The disney theme park main street is a flasback of Walt's hometown in Chicago back in the 1920s. The beginning of Disney company was build based on Walt's visions and creativity. His characters grows in all of us. Although his visions are prolly create fairy tales thats quite contrary to whats real out there. I mean, not every common girl sitting next to a dusty chimney would eventually transform into a princess at the end of the day, now would she? :p but it never fails to bring that warm and fuzzy feeling.
enough fairy tales.
and now.. im faced to a reality where I have to write about that frickin Telstra's corporate culture! tsk
Robert Kiyosaki
Three times I've been approached to join network 21. A networking endorse Robert Kiyosaki's infamous concept. Everyone who've heard of it must be crazy not to get tempted. The idea of passive income. the conformist becomes non-conformist. To think out of the box. A leader not manager.
The concept is easily hone in by ambitious people. people whose ideals are not "just to pay the rent". I've been approached to understand that dreams of yours, are feasible to achieve while you're young. I said to myself, they talk to the wrong crowd! pfft. Dont get me wrong, the passive income really interests me. It's just the network 21 that don't grow on me yet. although has no interest to make myself open minded to the networking :)
I've been approached twice, vigorously, to join network 21. Then she said something that made me think. she said, maybe they see you as a potential. maybe they see you as a business woman. I squint a little and start to question, Am I?
Again, my conscience pinch me and say once more "they're talking to the wrong crowd". Although, honestly, it does lift up the motivation to make reality of that hidden dream. hehe. whatever that is :)
I read articles about what leadership really is. I reckon Robert Kiyosaki's concept is to break into a leader's mind. Don't be follower. Be the leader.
and thats where the passive income walks in.
It says, skills are minimal. I reckon it means physical skills are limited, but mental skills are whats important. So emotional intelligence is the key?
Does talent has a role in the matter?
I reckon, Kiyosaki's concept seems a quick fix to a prosperous life.. but keeping an open mind to it, we'd see it educates us to be the leader. To think like a leader. but the two questions above are the twister.
Oh well, it's just my 2 cents.
again, i'm open minded to the concept, not N21 :)
kingdom of couture
Lauren Weisberger, famous for her "the devil wears prada" chic lit, move to mainstream by bringing along meryl streep and anne hathaway. It's a no brainer meryl streep nails the evil in the devil. Although the story for big screen is toned down to fulfil tinseltown's ideals.
Some critics say, the evil is not yet the devil. since the devil should be this hard-feeling being, but the miranda priesley in big screen is more likely a headstrong woman hide in a devil's mask. Yes, The devil, is still humane. Quite contrary to whats told in the book. the devil, is only the evil being.
but don't we all like to know that every cloud has a silver lining? that lining is a fine line between a woman and the devil. And that is, miranda priesley.
Although the devil wears prada is a story about Andy sachs - the blossoming brainy fresh-grad who is making an entrance into the fashion industry. However, Meryl streep's Miranda who steal the screen. It is, of course, a movie about the devil wears prada. And, Miranda is the devil.
Personally, the devil wears prada the movie is a visualisation to the kingdom of couture. All labels, no exception!
it's the socialite's closet, exposed!
One would die of envy after 1.5 hours being bombarded with collages of those chic and sleek.
I, too, want to be the devil wears PRADA! ;)
Goethe
put one's thoughts into action, the most
difficult thing in the world."
love and war
National Gallery of Victoria presents:
Today, Melbourne says good bye to Picasso.
Although I've seen what I need to see in the exhibition, but there is one thing I yet to do during the Picasso event.
That is, take pics on the entrance! =D
I always have to be a part of anything weird or significant in this city. Must.
To be presented as memorabilia in future times. Priceless moments. Scrapbook of life.
and I might miss this one promenade event in melbourne to be documented. *sigh*
due to lackness of fun of that person close to me. huhuuu
word.
learn new word.
bastardisation
seems odd to me, but apparently it's common.
hmm..
i surely lack of vocabulary.
according to the free dictionary,
| Noun | 1. | bastardisation - an act that debases or corrupts bastardization degradation, debasement - changing to a lower state (a less respected state) |
do I look THAT old?
ok I'm 23.
but someone actually thought that I'm older than 23!
and that's a compliment?
heck! I aint look OLDER than 23, am I?
is there such thing a "quarter life crisis"?
although the quarter life is not yet reached. so what then?
so FYI people... I AM TWENTY THREE! Not OLDER!
gak terima gw dianggep lebih tua.
pfuit.
being independent
as women thesedays become more and more independent.
we don't really concern on what our parents have to say.
i do that as well..
but does being independent means we listen to our inner voice itself and ignore others?
is being independent means giving the ability to be self-righteous?
is being independent means being a selfish human being?
is being independent means we decide our own life, our own destiny and not caring for our loved ones concerns?
dearest,
I know you're an independent woman.
don't leave us, don't leave them, don't leave...
at least... don't runaway.
not to the land of the unknown.
i don't know what else to say, nor do.
what must I do?
I, myself, stranded in a foreign land and not have the strength to hold you stay.
only the wise words to be told but your anger demolish the last courage I have.
dearest,
clear up your mind. don't leave in anger.
regret is what you may find.
dearest,
don't go.
uncle sam's land
"What makes the US so great?"
To Question or not to Question.
Apa bener dia negara adikuasa among other nations in the world?
tapi biarpun disini status dia dipertanyakan, tetep aja makhluk2 awam sperti kita berkiblat ke negara sang adikuasa itu. tapi kenapa?
apa iya krn dia negara (sangat) maju dan makmur so hidup kita bisa terjamin?
Nggak juga! rate kemiskinan, crime, dan sgala tetek bengek hitamnya kehidupan juga tinggi disana. tapi tetep aja, di mata awam the brand USA (if I may say that) diliat sperti istana megah yang terlihat berkilauan dari jarak jauh. sperti cerita fairy tale, setiap hamba yang awam pasti bermimpi tinggal di istana nan megah itu. makmur dan terjamin. sperti mimpi2 UUD '45 kita bukan? :p
yg herannya, england itu negara super makmur dan maju juga. i mean, it has more history dan super masterminds in all aspects. tapi knapa bukan dia yang jadi adikuasa dunia ini? instead malah amerika yang negara buangan inggris ribuan taun lalu menjadi big brother to other nations. apakah untuk suatu kontroversial leadership lebih mudah meng-attract massa daripada kepemimpinan usang Sang Raja dan Ratu? jadi, heritage don't necessarily the key ingredient to good leadership then?
Sperti yang diungkapkan Joey di "thank you for smoking" what's best about America?
is LOVE.
is it trying to say what Hugh Grant said? that "Love is... all around"?
cheeky.
but not entirely honest, nor true.
So what you reckon makes America the best among others?
MET ROVE!
I MET HIM I MET HIM I MET HIM!!!!
ROVE MCMANUS! the one and only Aussie Celeb I know.... and I MET HIM!
norak ya? bodo!
Jamie Aditya part 2 began. lol
nah, not exactly like JA scene at PIM.
but anyway, guess where I met Rove?
AT WORK!
when i was about to start my shift and there he was, queuing to be served.
I tot my super was going to ask me to take over the dude at the register where Rove's queuing.. but NOOOO! insted she told me to go to the register at the other end! WTF!
tp gpp, finally I met an Aussie celeb and I KNOW his a celeb! unlike the case for that blake dude from neighbours whom I met years ago at Sportsgirl, not knowingly he's a celebrity! LOL
Miss d, remember that time? We were about to take a picture wif aussie celeb, but I din want to cos I don know him? nyesel juga sih skrg... haha..
Just wish that he's rove, then i'd definitely wait in line for piccies! lol.
Phew!
I need to act my age now.
Don't Stop Believin'
She took the midnight train goin' anywhere
Just a city boy, born and raised in south Detroit
He took the midnight train goin' anywhere
A singer in a smokey room
A smell of wine and cheap perfume
For a smile they can share the night
It goes on and on and on and on
Strangers waiting, up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching in the night
Streetlight people, living just to find emotion
Hiding, somewhere in the night
Working hard to get my fill,
everybody wants a thrill
Payin' anything to roll the dice,
just one more time
Some will win, some will lose
Some were born to sing the blues
Oh, the movie never ends
It goes on and on and on and on
Don't stop believin'
Hold on to the feelin'
Streetlight people
*journey
and we welcome, River Samuel
He's my AGE, 23.. and yet he has THREE BABIES! I wanna say congrats, but there's also another thought in mind....
all in all, congrats dude. you're again, three giant leaps ahead of me. :P
wat a cutesies babies, they are!! all of em look girls thou.. sorry ezraa!! *kiss2* == sok kenal!!
weird me
since i've been looking for a new place to live, im having a weird obsession. lately, i dream of having a nice, fab, huge, modern contemporary townhouse somewhere in a nice suburb. pff add a white picket fence and .... Whaa! the housewife stereotype of the 70s! LOL
a girl can dream, can she not? :) the house, i mean.
Today, I was just flipping over the newspaper and saw the listing of real estate around the country. fab houses! Totally dream houses ever! tapi nyah nyah.. harganye coong! the "cheapest" is 1 million DOLLAR okee!! duit darimenonggggggg!!!!
marrying a rich dying old man is an option. but whueekk! I aint that desperate over a million dollar mansion okeee!
on another current update..
Ramadan is here.
Minal Aidin Wal Faidzin. I miss Ramadan in Indo. The feeling is never the same here.
I miss Eid Ul Fitr at my mum's hometown. I even miss having to rush for shower with on the 1st day Eid Ul Fitr. Imagine, 1 bathroom and 10 people in the house.. BLOOD BATH!
Missing you all so much. Including all the newborns in the family that I have not yet meet! :)
cepret kedupret
Just between "i wish i could" and "i don't know".
it's a mellow down at the basement.
time to shut down the ott friendliness of friendster network.
am outraged!
last night,
she says reality speaks differently,
he says willingness to try is non-existent.
isht.
cepret kedupret sittin' on the corner of Nowhere Road.
RESPECT MY AUTHORATOR
you know what, when i logged into my gmail account, i start to remember what my lecturer told us in class. the amazing invention of google is not just as a search engine, but also as a global storage database of every living being in this earth. so everything we "googled" is stored in their own massive "server".
in a nutshell, i reckon people at google corp know exactly what we've been wandering around on the web. invasion of privacy? well, since internet was legally explored outside the pentagon.. the word privacy and confidential are no longer in the dictionary. so, google is just expanding it alot further. truth to be told, there's no such thing as confidential record in our lives. there is at least one external party who has our most treasured record number, that is, our bank account number or social security number (if youre sited in the US).
Google? well, they invade into our most inner thoughts. if you can put it that way. everything that you've been searching for always re-appear in your gmail account sponsored link bar (located above the message inbox). Thats what i recognized anyway. When i first realised the link bar, i was kinda confused. thinking, how do these links relates to what i've been searching for lately? for instance, at that time i was keen to begin cooking 101. so i "googled" whatever's there for recipes and voila! on the link bar in my gmail account also appear these links to the foods i've been looking for. surprise surprise!
but thats only the simplest example of a simple mind like mine.
when you think it further, what about those important search links from the government, banks, corporate alliances or even corporate competitors? although they might have firewall security within their network, but is not impossible to hack 'em given the data may just been stored inside "the google's brain".
I also heard that Chinese (or taiwanese or korean?) government have signed an agreement with google corp to buy sumtin about this google's search engine. well, i wasnt clear about the tid-bits. but bottom line, this government can easily locate whatever that exists inside of the google's brain that it bought. MEANING, this chinese/taiwanese/korean government will be able to know about our information as well! again, think it further... what if it's the account for other important affiliances or stock market indexes? Go figure.
the question is, does every revolutionary invention means to challenge the existing law so that enable them to invent a breakthrough without having legal limitations?
The life to remember
today's the memorial service for the crikey dude. Steve Irwin.
It's a celebration of Irwin's life, they said.
bindi bid farewell to her daddy.
Millions of people can't help but to feel the lost.
"The crocs are crying" says David Wenham.
Crocs, your mate's gone.
Everyone will miss him dearly. Kids lost their hero.
He was their 'superman'.
the world shed the tears they can no longer hold inside.
This is the final goodbye..
As said by Cameron Diaz, JT, Hugh Jackman,
............ Farewell mate.
HOT HOT HOT
Its a frickin bloody HOT HOT weather today!
its 4.30 in the afternoon, im waiting fo my train to come.
As I was waiting, I see summer in near.
OFF them skinnies & boots, ON the hotties! Flaunt 'em booties, show sum legs!
I see yellow, blue, green all around.
Peach and nectarines stacked ready in Victoria Market.
Yet, the calendar shows the month September.
I wonder, does summer come in advance this year?
Wish the same goes for semester break!
black tears
That long black satin lace suits with your black heart.
I perish, I mourn.
Drown in my own black tears.
Let me carry on to the dreamers skye.
When I fade away, I fade away.
My heart grows cold and bleak.
The dark night is my only companion.
Whisper to the bright stars in summer sky. "I'm still here"
Life is like a masquerade.
We shall dance the night away.
I called, I wait.. but to no avail.
An affair to remember.
me, my black sequin dress, and jimmy choos.
Where art thou? Can't you hear me calling?
And I Whisper to the bright stars in summer sky.
I'm Still Here.
Ajig na, here.
Emotional roller coaster. 'tis not allowed, they said.
Hormonal syndrome. Lose ends.
Don't let the face fooled you. All tear apart inside.
Sarang.
The means to an end.
Where to? How to? Who would want to?
Doctor, Doctor, Please.
The battlefield is yet begun...
I fear the year end fading away before my eyes.
razorblade
Won't you watch me bleed?
These walls seem to whisper goodbye. Disturb me from continuous smiles and laughter
the gleaming ambiance that night don't kiss away the uneasy heart.
in the crowds. singled-out is not an option or a possibility.
why void persist?
These eyes glare to every inch of the room.
The candles brighten up the place, singing happy birthday.
I've misplaced the brightest star. It shines not to be forever remembered.
I wouldn't let you go. I won't!
but there's no assurance that you won't.
I'm at the acute "S" stage. kod kod!
I feel like screaming on top of my lung
"GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH"
drowning to the darkest eternity.
my heart bleeds.
turn the radio up. close our eyes and pretend to fly
Just between "I wish I could" and "I don't know".
Rain is splashing up between her toes
She doesn't know her own area code
She's the picture of a heart of gold.
On the edge of depression unknown.
have loads things in mind. like usual, make my own catastrophies.
my ears hurt when i hear the sound. it shrieks.
sigh, am the devil's child.
--
i cant help to reminisce those years when i hear the songs.
thats exactly what im doing.
theyll never stop bugging me, will they? althou i dont want them to.
Turn the radio up, and push the pedal to the ground,
... gaze at starry skies,
close our eyes and pretend to fly
if i have a convertible car i'd do exactly just that. feel the air wipes away the sorrow and just pretend to fly far away from all the bitter crowds.
He has his penny to hold on to. Lucky penny.
--
you know what
she knows me too well. i cant help but wonder if being open and honest are better than being private and unexpressive? does an open-book is more enjoyable to read than a closed one? althou they said to know a great book is to read it page by page 'til the end cover. the former sounds a lot preferable than the latter then?
am rambling when my mind wudnt stop thinking things. creating one annoyance scenario over another.
Hff..
Current state: In urgent need of upbeat rhythm.
campur sari
September 10th.
The beginning of my ADSL bill period. So midnite last night was a celebration.
FINALLY no more 64 kbps speed ever again!
well, intinya sih.. i can watch K-Dramas live streaming! LOL
anyway
me and my 2 close mates having the same .... umhh, craving. yeah, put it that way.
beginilah yang dia beberkan ke dunia,
ngerasain punya gebetan a.k.a cowo yang disukai a.k.a bisa bikin deg-degan, hihihihi
hahahahaha
I'm waiting for the sza sza zsu.
:::::::: mak! what about my request eh? bisa dilaksanakan tidak? hohoho ;))
talking nonsense.
ps: have another interview. different company. it's a casual job thing. not related to my course. but shud be good money. hopefully will nail the interview. need the cash and shifts. wish me luck
Dia, Pippi Longstocking, dan Saya.
hehe.. nulis lagi.
wait wait, lately tulisan gw pake bahasa gado-gado banget ya? hm.. lagi males mikir inggris.
anyhoo.. aku kangen tulisannya diaaaa!! siapa dia?
si penulis populer muda yang tulisannya oh so intimidating skali! *at least buat gue* hehe
dan bener aja loh gue... the primary "diary" is closed krn terlalu banyak public attention. begah. iya lah, sapa juga bisa bebas ngluarin uneg2 sgala macem tetek bengek dari your dirtiest thoughts sampe ke yang very daring ideas. ujug-ujug malah di plagiat. halah.. buat penulis2 kondang, mereka merugi laah! biarpun udah banyak yg namanya copyright protection macamnya creative commons license yang di templokin di side bar blog2 itu. gue gak tau persis apaan ccl itu.. tp dari the word license it's sorta protection untuk "penulis2" blog itu untuk secure their works from plagiarism. at first, ok lah there's a new concept of copyright protection on the web. tapi then again, i reckon it's a loadda crap lah. it's a friggin fuckin blog gitu loh! yang dengan seenak jidat kupipes
Sperti yang pernah gue tanyakan... apa gue ama dia sdikit ada kemiripan? Tapi tentu saja.. alter ego dia lebih extreme. Hff you had me to tattooed a huge questionmark on your face. Wondering which one is the true you.
I couldn't understand it.
Hm.
Oh well, a closing quote from Will,
"Yeah. What's that about, Pippi?"
perfect.holiday.collage
Alesan knapa ganti si kulit schizilly ini lagi?
yah, same ol' same ol'.
saya bosan, titik.
alesan lain knapa kali ini temanya sungguh sangat bertolak belakang dengan yang sebelumnya. dari gelap menyeramkan dan sekarang penuh dengan warna.
collage yang gue bikin dengan sangat amatirnya ini sbnrnya ada artinya. baru diajarin sama guest lecturer dari TNS. The theme is about "your perfect holiday" and the collage is about MY Perfect Holiday. Apart from it, you can actually see right through me using these visuals.
After mixing all pics together, I found out that the perfect holiday dont necessarily be constant option. A mix of outdoorsy, sporty and solitude is more than you could ask for. two elements necessary though, laughter and a relax ambiance. Although I prefer places with alot of green grasses around, bright blue sky, historical towns, or back to the simplest nature.. the isolated village. saking isolatednya, i miss my grandparents hometown..
pedesaan kecil 30km dari kota Solo. saking terpencilnya, mau telpon harus ke wartel, atau pake hape mesti mojok2 deket antena. saking isolatednya, kadang harus nyebrang kali ato jalan di pematang sawah untuk nyekar ke eyang2ku.
gak nyangka, gue bakalan kangen ama desa kecil itu. i spent all my childhood holidays in that village. Uhh, aku kangennn... sepinya tempat itu. tenangnya tempat itu. keramahan penduduk tempat itu. aku kangeennn...
Bungee, canoeing dan other once-in-a-lifetime aktifitas juga gak jadi pengecualian. Hey, it's a holiday! time to not think things and just go for it! away the fear.
Tapi, pendukung terpenting di kala liburanku.. TEMAN.
liburan sendiri? blom pernah ngalamin.. tp i'd think i wont enjoy as much. theyre the must haves for holiday.
Liburan gak harus pergi keluar kota, keluar negri kan?
Thats what I love about this city.
I can just go out of my apartment and enjoy the weather while walking alone in the park. Just sit there watching people pass by and take some interesting pictures with my mobile cam.
last but not least, there's always the option of sleeping!
tidur sepuas2nya. bermalas2an under your warm doona. dreaming for the better days.
hm, know me better yet?
so.. what's your perfect holiday?
JD and I
I just realised.
I'm J.D
but lacking Dr. Cox, Turkleton, Elliot, and Carla around.
so i'm a lost J.D seeking identity.
hey, that rhymes! :p
updates:
SATU: saya baru nyadar kalo tugas brand audit gak segampang iprit yang dibayangkan. uanying! paper yang udah dikumpulin di balikin lagi.. karena oh karena.. gak sesuai ama yang di harapkan si ibu lecturer. halahh.. mati akuu!
DUA: mesti bikin survey buat the damn paper thing. alamakjikipe where can i get respondents with age group 30-50 y.o, married and/or have family, technology enthusiasts, dan tinggal di ostrali!! oeeh.. gini nih sok pinter milih2 topik yang sok keren. kelabakan sndiri!
TIGA: AKU TIDAK DITERIMA KERJA (see earlier posting). hohoho.. cah edan! gak diterima kerja kok ya seneng. so stupid ay. on monday, i was nervous everytime there's a beep from mobile. afraid that it'll be from that company. lol mbodo!
yeah thats the only updates for now.
ugghh piye iki tugasku yaaaa..
hm, must go library to get the text so can figure out what to do next.
so lazy ah. but good weather.. just go?
CRIKEY! He's gone!
Another heartbreaking news... a death of the world's wildlife warrior.
Steve Irwin, the conservationalist, the Australian wildlife icon, the true Aussie! passed away yesterday while filming a documentary of deadliest marine life. A stingray spiked him right in the chest.
The man was always full of life. Some say he's larger than life. At 44, he lived life to the fullest. Not many people get to experienced that.
Honestly, i was never fond of the guy. sometimes i reckon he's a bit over the top with the crikey crocs remarks.... and whats with that thick Aussie accent?!
but yeah, one thing that I know, to leave mark in this world, you have to go to the extremes. Steve Irwin, did just that.
He'll be greatly missed from people around the world. No other man will ever be just like him.
Farewell mate.
goodbye, farewell, adieu
nangis gak brenti2 sampe kpalaku pening. mata jadi bengkak.
hff... she's so loved, by many. not only the loved ones but also the unknown others. in every part of the globe. thats amazing for someone who's not Princess Di.
goodbye, fareweel, adieu
zidan syifa dearests, your mum's oh-so-proud of you both. she'll look down from heaven above to see you dancing through life.
tears shed from my eyes and dunno when to stop. i have no control of it.
the heart stroke deep by a sharp-edged knife.
i dont know them. they dont know me.
yet the sadness felt so close.
never thought i'd cry so hard for someone i barely knew.
Selamat tinggal teh inong.
midnite managerie (yet again)
sunday just began. 48 minutes ago.
you know what,
earlier i was asked to do a shift at coles from 3 PM to 12 midnite.
If i accepted it, I'd be on my way home now.
tired.
exhausted.
smelly. =P
but ey, i said i cant work today.
not that i can't.
i just dont want to.
see, thats why i love casual jobs.
no commitments.
flexible.
*hff* funny.
people asked for shifts.
even desperate to get some longer shifts.
why?
more shifts. more money. easy peasy.
i dont need money?
yes. i do.
but the hardship in getting 'em, is un-higly necessary.
snob?
yeah, maybe.
no no. lazy is more likely. yeah, suits me well. no no,
suits me perfect ly!
hm, immature.
premature?
hm.
the weekend just started. you know what i heard today?
two people passed away this weekend.
the mum was a fellow blogger, she wrote about her happy family and the love for cooking.
the grams was my great grams by marriage from my mum's side.
Both were the people i hardly knew.
Both were loved immensely by their families and friends. They'll be greatly missed.
We're not to question God for his doing nor to ask Him to undo what had happened.
but yeah, we made peace with great grams. but the mum just starting her life, her babies are yet enter school. Don't they got to ask why You took her from them, God?
She's just 32, great grams was 80-something years old.
I guess, nothing's certain in life is it? Dare I ask for fairness?
I'm shaken with the thought of asking You whatever's in mind.
My mum asked me to SMS my aunt and gramma.
5 Hours later...
I yet to send them any sms.
you see, condolences are not the easiest word to say.
how can the other person feel whether you're being sincere or just the urge need to sympathize?
sincerity seems lacking when words dont seem fit.
Innalillahi Wa inalillahi Roji'un.
Dearests,
May you rest in peace. Say hello to big Man up there Ok.
be good.
smile for us from up above.
ps: nothing is certain, whether you're 23 or 93.
the big Man holds the key.
it hit me.
i wrote a whole lot earlier. as usual, the stupid comp restart by itself. bah. everything's erased. cant remember what ive written.
point is, i jes realised i might get a real job this time. a job that suits the course im currently studying. you wud think i'd be extremely ecstatic. well, i dont.
reason being, it's a reality check for me. i might be doing the thing every student will be doing after graduate from uni. well, im not yet graduated, but hopefully soon. so it's like a huge training for me. but im not taking it so well. i was just thinking whether i want a full-time job at this time. it's not a really full-time, but 4 days 9-4.30 per week I reckon falls into the full-time category. although ill be working 3 days a week in that time frame, since i have uni. the other one day will be spent during weekends or night shifts. thinking about the working hours already makes me tremble.
at times, i'd beg for any job to come along but when it's there in front of me, im too chicken shit to reach it. it's a friggin real job, for God sake! I know, although it dont require a dior suit or prada pumps to work, but it's pretty much a worth-the-experience kinda job. It will make pretty of my resume later on. =D
it gets me all panicky cos all the work requires me to speak non-stop for 7 hours. although fluency already pass the average bar, but perfection is still out of reach. not sure whether i'd be able to do all the small talks necessary to reach the quota for every project. GAH! im so confuse i might explode!
:( :( :( :(
shall i just go for it? no fuss, no thinking, nothing.
alhtough there will be no escape afterwards. theyre not asking for a temp, not a three months staff. am i prepared for it?
my mind's so messed up!! noone knows what im feeling now, i bet. i have a mind of my own, that i know. pretty much screwed up in the head.
hihihi
udah jam stengah 4. bosen. untungnya gak ngantuk, alhamdulillah.
tapi kok ya tugas baru 40 % done? alamak Gustiii!!
istirahatin pikiran dulu ahh..
rencana nyambi nonton dvd scrubs, di minimize dan di taro pojokan, half size aja.
tapi kok ya pc nya gak nerima bajakan scrubs. huhuu.. blagu.
klik klak klik. masuk folder sini, folder itu, nyalain windows media player.
Tadaa! si mata sipit dari masa lalu. HI HI HI HI HI
shuffle,
repeat.
eeh.. cekikikan.
sekarang malah ngeblog?
Duh goblog beneran deh gue.
hi hi hi hi hi ;))
edan! edan! edan!
annyeonghashimnikka!
The day is young. Not yet midday. I drank 2 cups of coffee. 2 teaspons moccona, 1 sugar and few drops soy skim milk. Not as bitter as I thought. The time is 10.30 AM. I have exactly 30 hours to finish up assignment on Prius.
*sigh*
I slept thru the whole night last night. no improvement since midnite entry last nite.
Lazy. Yeah, I am.
Panic mode begin.
I'm lost in big terms like brand elements, brand positioning, brand-product matrix.
Ugh, I wish it all just a dream...
jumpin' jumpin'
the man sure can dance, eh?
Wade Robson.
is tha man.
Cant believe I forgot to mention about him. Watched his "Wade Robson Project" on a local TV back in Indo. I think it was aired in a collabo of local TV and MTV channel. Cant remember which.
Anyhoo, for those not in the know, Wade's a choreographer for most of hip-hop celebs. To name a few, britney, JT, JC, Mya were once his hottest clients. But the dude can dance, for real. Aint the sissy kind either. He appeared cameo on You Got Served! the movie. The movie's simple. A dance-offs between 2 competing crews. The winner got exclusive on Lil kim's video. Ok, the movie Honey, her crew dilirik missy elliot? sangat dimaafkan. Tapi ini the Lil Saints' crew dilirik lil kim? kok ya penting gitu loh?! Lil Miss Kim? laku juga nggak!
but watching the movie got me thinking about the street dance-offs that these kids often do. Is it really exist in the states? I know for sure that they have freestyle rap battle jes like eminem did on 8 mile. But i dunno about this kinda street dance-offs. I reckon it really is a good activity for the kids to kill time. At least they wont do anything stupid and actually get active, leaving out the PSPs and Xbox behind.
hm.. Good. Good.
Anyhoo... Sabtu kmaren menjadi hari besar untuk 2 keluarga. Si teman, abangnya dikaruniai anak lelaki. Si penulis populer, istrinya melahirkan anak lelaki juga. Ada apa dengan tanggal 26 Agustus kah? Kebetulan lah hay people I know kebanjiran kebahagiaan. *ups, the penulis, I dont even know him/her! Sok kenal aja!* Belum lama ini ponakanku juga lahir. Perempuan. Keisha namanya. Umph.. memang, keluargaku gen perempuannya kuat. We're the wonderwomen family! lol. jayus ah.
Ada apa ini aku dikelilingi berita tentang kelahiran bayi-bayi 2006? Bayangkan aja, 20 tahun lagi, mereka akan seumur kita sekarang. Perjalanannya masih jauh.. Tapi apa dunia ini siap menerima mereka? 20 tahun mendatang, dunia ini bakalan penuh sesak gak ya? Apa ponakan2 kecilku ini bisa bernafas disela manusia-manusia tua ini? Uff, nikmati aja kebahagiaan ini sekarang. jgn mikir macem2 dulu. Pipi mereka aja masih merah. Welcome to the world, babies. It sucks, but you're gonna love it!
Moving on, You know darwis triadi open photography school in kemang? I so wanna go! I've been dying to learn anything photography since ages ago. one thing that stops me.. the equipments are damm expensive. I always wonder what if im not enjoying photography as much, what will happen to those overpriced cameras and the likes? Gue orangnya bosenan. I like studying things, but not in depth. Just on the surface. Point is, just as long as I know whats this about and how to do 'em, in simple terms. im done.
Thats all I always do.
So, yeah, that stops me to learn photography.
hm, after reading it myself, it sounded like a stupid excuse. bah.
umhh, it's almost midnite. Tomoro's the last day August. I have assignment due on that day. Guess what?
Yeah, havent done it one bit! *grin* Did some point forms but none on writing. It's about the hybrid car audit I mentioned few postings earlier. After having done some research, I want a hybrid car. It sounds cool and light on fuel. Meaning, I dont need to spend 25 bucks for a friggin 20lt! The manufacturers for this type of car is limited here in Aussie tho. Like Bill - my lecturer - said, Aussie's pretty out-of-date on these things. LOL
Cudnt agree more Bill. :p
A last note:
I felt zombie-like today. I'm frazzled but convinced myself all is fine. Hm, none's wrong tho. so why the zombie phase?
lightning strike
it hurts.
it gets me back to reality.
bah! i've been living in mere fantasy for the past few weeks.
pathetic.
all this time. I've been walking in dark alleys.
all this time. I've been looking for uncertainties.
all this time. I cant find my way out of this long winding alleyways.
all this time.
i'm too tired to even make any effort.
or maybe i'm too lazy to even bother?
capek gue, sedih gue.
Uhff.. what just happened?
mood swings happen.
yeah,
it's typical me.
Miami? Aint so hot nomore!
the duo foxx and farrell aint so hot.
An action movie that is without any speed, flirtatious ladies, sexy rhytm, and to-die-for lead actors.
bah.
Miami vice the movie, failed miserably.
Yes, the movie is darker than the original tv series, but an action movie without any action? I reckon pretty lamo, innit?
And whats with colin farrel as sonny crockett? Heck, he aint even close to imitate don johnson! The man in the 80s was damm hot! Colin in the 21st century? Aint.
Google seems not in favor with the movie either. In 0.26 seconds, the few first entries on miami vice were from the original tv series. Not the foxx-farrell big screen movie. Shame.
They tried to make the movie drop it like it's hot with 2 of the hottest hollywood assets, but that doesnt seem to work fine either. Where it went wrong, I wonder?
The occasional occurrence of thunders from up the distance whenever the boys are up for some gun actions is pretty cool i reckon. That adds to the dark element of the movie. It's the only good part of the movie. Linkin park's numb really puts an adrenalin rush at the beginning. But it's all ended when the song ends. bah. Gagal.
Well, all in all. you get the point.
Miami Vice?
Numb.
Dumb.
2 AM
I made myself a cup of coffee just about an hour ago... berharap bisa bantu aku stay awake.
I need to stay awake to finish up the assignment due tomorrow afternoon.
Bah. Haven't write anything on the word document yet. Got the structure right, but not the contents. That's why, I need to stay awake for the next 12 hours.
semua lagu di iTunes that I can think of udah di puter. Muak.
JPop jadi pilihanku di dini hari ini.
Simple reason really, so I won't sing cos I cant sing it!
Lagunya juga gak jedang-jedung layaknya 50 cent.
sbnrnya sih intinya, gw gak bisa konsen. Serius.
Kenapa ya gue?
I only have 12 more hours and all I can think of is to sweep into my bed, curl underneath the warm doona. and sleep.
I've slept more than enuf last night. I drank a cup of coffee. I took a shower at midnite. I'm listening to a loud rock & roll music.
But when's time to study, godaan setan emang susah dikalahin.
Godaan untuk tidur di kasur empukku itu bener2 menggiurkan.
Gue ngantuk. Tapi tugas?
Damn.
Diapun gak ada untuk menghibur gue. mbantu gue biar tetep bangun.
Darn.
What's wrong with me?
Gue bahkan gak takut untuk telat kumpulin tugas besok.
Mengerikan...
Who am I becoming?
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Thanks to a friend, I knew Depapepe.
Their songs lift up energi gue yang udah mulai terseok2.
BANZAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LoL
bitter
looking out my bedroom window in a midday thursday. It's already 20 past 12.
The weather outside looks bleak. The sun seems to forget to wake up from its deep sleep. "I'm having my day off today" that's probably what it would say.
Rain will be my companion today. Rain and dark clouds.
Yeah. Perfect combination.
It suits me well.
My fingers can't stop shuffling itunes. Searching for right rhythm.
It stops when Boyz II Men singing their color of love.
"I can't think of a sadder song in the whole world" Seth's said.
Although I'm unsure whether the feeling's sad, depressed, or just simply uneasy.
Mixed emotions? Not really.
I wonder if the day has been bright and shining, would today be different?
Would it whisk away this melancholy emotion?
Would I be in a complete zen mode?
The ifs are always in my thoughts.
Me and the rest of the world.
How would I know the universe when my vision's limited to only what the eyes can see?
It's so unfair.
... to think the unreachable.
Or to even hope for craze fixation.
So I'd plea for temporary insanity.
oh shut up!
"TURN THE MUSIC OFF ITS DEPRESSING ME"
Can I do it?
if you push urself to the limit. how'll you know you'd make it?
Standing out and taking chances, thinking of explosive results only to satisfy the thirst to be different.
Risks and actions would be the hurdles.
But the question is one, Can I do it?
So, How have you been?
can't even remember what my last posting was about. haha
been too caught up with my sights and not thoughts.
addicted to K-drama, My Girl.
Intoxicated with LDW's cheeky smiles. LOL.
Dee, am at it again! haha. There wont be an end to this kinda thing, eh? *Grin*
Working few more shifts. Getting to know more names and tasks.
Assignments are piling up, with no intention to begin research.
procrastinating's on the roll baby!
Aments to do this coming week,
Brand audit for Toyota Prius. It's a hybrid car, for those not in the know. hehe. blagu. padahal jg baru aja research eeee! ;)
- Wanna know where I get the idea to do a research on hybrid car?
Thanks to MTV and southpark. LOL. First time I heard of hybrid car was from one of southpark episode, and the latest i heard of it was just a week ago on MTV movie award. So basically, thank you jessica alba, matt stone and trey parker for giving me the idea. blahaha corny as!
Mission statements review.. thinking about the topic.
Might do Mp3 players manufacturers. Eg, Ipod, Iriver, and the others.
Wudnt be easy, I reckon.
We'll jes see how it goes.
So there. Thats my task for this next 2 weeks.
Given the addiction I have, it wudnt be too easy to finish 'em on time.
Damn you Azntv!
I'm addicted to this man.
Shush. Dont laugh.
Remember people, ADDICTION KILLS!
So true. Can't get things done, late for everything. Due to excessive consumption to live streaming Drama series. BAH
Anyway, I wrote this a few days back. When thinking about the topic for my brand audit assignment and coincidently reading an article about the blonde-chica none other than Ms. Paris Hilton.
Mind you, my thoughts were tangled between branding theories and hollywood gossip. LOL
"Paris Hilton declared herself as being the shy girl. I'd say, BULLSHIT! But ambitious, most definitely! Hence, the idea of celebrity equals to being a brand is then occured in mind. The on-camera personality would perhaps represents a brand identity. With consideration of 'whats selling given the "packaging"?'
Media entertainment is what audience constantly keen to see/know. Bad publicity, but to what extend, will lead to instant limelights?
Fresh celebrity, How to speed the fansite?
New product, how to increase market share?
but this idiotic concept perhaps wudnt apply appropriately for idealistic artists(?)
Not sure. but hey, it's an idiotic theory. LOL" -- Bingung? I do now. HAHA
PS: Selamat Ulang Tahun Indonesiaku.
lose the jargon
"If your vocabulary is limited, so is your range of thought"
well put. that what frustrates me the whole lot.
i reckon, a wordsmith could easily escape from his/her troubles.
one example, michael the BB 2006 ex-housemate. He knows his ability to fool people by embracing his talent with words.
i envy him for that.
and since my vocab is extremely limited, so is my range of thought.
i.e. how can you speak out your mind when you don't know the words to say them?
see?
hooters air
Seharian gue online nyari tugas. read articles anything about branding. You know what I came across while reading articles from businessweek? At first, it's just a typical article about brand extensions, that is, brands that stretch its' product into others outside their initial business. To name a few, virgin has made a large sum of extensions from its' original recording company, virginrecords into an airline business, finance/insurance firm, mobile phone industry, and even had their own lingerie and jeans clothing line. Came to no shock, the latter two industries didnt have any effect to the company's profitability. Hence, out they go.
Anyhooooo.. the interesting part is that businessweek has their own compilation of the most odd brand extensions occuring in 2006. The most hillarious is the hooters air -the brand extension of a restaurant chain HOOTERS.
For those not in the know, Here's hooters. :D
Hooters air will be launched in spring 2006 in the US. Is it already spring in the US? if so, then the business is up and running.
I reckon it's much a huge stretch for hooters to launch a hooters air, dont u think? ;)
I wonder how they'll run the airline industry ????
The restaurant's famous for its' hooters girls... would that be the same case for the hooters air's flight attendant? hooo... interesting. :p
Here's the link for some brand extensions 2006 that might come too far.. CLICK HERE
What you reckon? Wanna fly with HOOTERS AIR?
hm, don't get so judgemental first, prolly they might give good service? I just realised, prolly they stretch their business into airline cos it serves similar purpose, customer service industry.
Different is, this one's up in the air.
Midnite refreshment
honestly, i may bore you to death.
got nutin to write about. it's over midnite, I'm bored as usual, just doing some research and browsing for job vacancies, chatting with a friend, and on a constant mood for youtube binge.
Watched MTV Movie Awards 2006 earlier in the evening.
IT. IS. SUCK. BIG. TIME. ha. ha.
Although, trying not to be a hypocrite here, there were times when I had my MTV era. The times when I thought it'd be so damn bloody cool to actually livin it up back at the MTV headquarter. Be one with the stars and all the glam life. Meet all the hollywood number ones and join the line up of A-list stars. The presentations of everything MTV is soooo out there and... cool.
yeah... i was fooled.
hmph dont care now.
you know what, there's a bomb attack at UK airport. Worldwide nations have been in constant panic ever since. Securities can never be more tight in every part of the globe. Hence, as tiny as mobile phones are not allowed to be brought into the cabin. This Is What Happens If You're Trying to Blow Up the Planes, People.
DAMN YOU STUPID BOMBERS!
FYI, i hate using the word terrorists. I dont wanna get caught up to the US' (or more precise, Bush's) mind frame. By refusing to fully acquaintant with the word, not necessarily I chose to ignore it completely. If you get what i mean lah. pusing sayah udah malem ginih.
oh another update, my niece was born few days ago. her name's keisha. nice name huh.
what am i doing this middle of the night...
hmm....
looking for jobs. found one. but dunno how to change my resume to fit into the qualifications. Never good at the two-minute commercial thing, you know. Went to a counselor, she said the work i've done is fine. but again, I don't trust those people. They don't really sincere in the way they giving out advice. I'm not fully convinced that what I did is already good enough.
Maybe it's just me.
I want boots. Not uggs. Just leather flat pointy boots, black.
An Aussie mentioned how UGG boots are bogans' boots. Bah. ILFIL.
same as saying i'm NDESO?
Uh, damn you Hollywood for making them THE MUST HAVE BOOTS OF THE YEAR!
Ah, bosan saya.
btw, knp klo gue nulis slalu lompat kesana kemari ya? Never had any one meaningful point.
hmpff.. biarin lah.
5 minute pitch
in every aspect of our ordinary lives, we are promoting ourselves to others. seeking assurance about our intellegence, beauty, personality, etc. as if this life is filled with the number ONEs. competing who will come first became the most important thing. it's most likely resemblance as an acceptance. acceptance in our everyday ordinary lives. pathetic? not really. deep inside, we've all been there. prior being accepted.. some people give all their effort for enormous amount of self-promotion. how many times a day people give their two-minute commercial about themselves, about YOU. in businesses, people do whatever it takes to built up image, to high up the market, expand the business, and so on. Sometimes, the better person comes up with a 5 minute pitch. Give it ago, all you have in you. Although what you're selling isn't about YOU personally, but honestly, the other person would prolly make decision based on what they thought about YOU. Aside from the business point of view, in a simple gathering, say group discussion, the more stand out you are, the more people pay attention to you. implicitly, you've given yourselves the 5 minute pitch, a two-minute commercial.
hff.. ramblings. as always.
i think i've just missed another opportunity, which was unnoticable until it ended. mbego.
what the F?
Launchcast really good at setting up the mood.
Out of nowhere I chose soft pop and all that streaming are love songs.
Phil collins had his solo, then came out diana ross with her endless love.
and now sting's desert rose.
the dude's there and the teasing begun?
what the F? he challenged and I step back a little bit.
what's going on here? I'm actually having fun.
insane.
