throbbing toothache of the mind

what my coolest baby can do!

















More here.

Gather your thoughts.
Think.
that here is better than anywhere else.


like someone once said, it's not the place... but the people.
Relax.
you'll come round.
soon...

Safe and sound.
in my grabs.

This thing.

I'm...
excited.
anxious.

and officially broke.
*sigh
=D

if you're wondering what in the world are these pics of?
is that small thing on the tree crawling down!
twirl the tail up and keep alert.


Captured on Nokia N73 camera phone.

hence the title? =D

Don't you just hate having to depend on gadgets?

I lost all my photo albums in my Nokia.
Accidentally mark all and press delete.

I lost my last photos I took in Melbourne.
I lost my niece's video capture of her 2nd birthday!

Disaster.

ONE

I feel a little bit of smooth jazz this very afternoon in cloudy Jakarta.
My iTunes switched over its poppy Indo songs to Koz. Dave that is.
Moon river is the chosen of the day.
I bring you this video, which shows the most elegant lady on showbiz and the cooling sounds of the oldie: Audrey Hepburn, Breakfast at Tiffany's and Moon River.


A perfect collage.


I've forgotten jazz for poppies since I got back Indo.
Well, not jazz in all means. Just, dave koz. =D
the man knows how to work the sax.

TWO

I'm psyched of PSYCH!
a new TV series. Well, not new. It's starting the 3rd season already and I just happen to watched season 1 yesterday on DVD.
It's funny. It solves crimes. It's entertaining.
2 dudes solve crimes based on memory and attention to details. Then, take those as psychic ability. It's not the cases, not the focus on details, not the solving crimes, but I couldn't take my eyes off 'em. They're ridiculous antics ( i shud say, His ridiculous antics!) what makes the show (slightly) different than the other crime/comedy shows. We have monk with his obsessive compulsive behavior and nothing funny about CSIs, nor Dexter. So, an open slot for crime and seriously dimwitted comedy.

The dad plays important role, for the flashback and what makes Him (the psychic) who he is today. I love the black guy - the sidekick. Sidekicks always outshines the hero I always say. Now, he (Gus, the black dude) did some serious act. His comedy antics are right on proportion, unlike the psychic lead who's too over the top most times.
Leave you a video of 'em, apparently, trying to duo on ebony and ivory.



Don't the white dude looks alot like Jessica Simpson's ex? the boyband dude. whatsisname?


THREE

Mentioned Dexter before, right?
Well, another TV series. Some bloody series it is. Sick.
But once you're on to it, you'd wanna know what will happen next.
It has its basic story, which involves dexter and his personality disorder. Meaning, he kills people but to his dictionary only bad people. However, there's always one person who knows (or at least suspect) he's of something else than who he portrays in society. The darker side.
That one person always made dexter's life, a little bit, complicated. There's one person in season 1 and theres another person in season 2.

You get to see how dexter outgame his arch enemy in every season.
That's where you get caught up and couldn't leave the screen.
Dexter is intoxicating. It's disgusting on what they make him do, but you couldn't get your eyes off 'cos you want to know what's next. Pretty good writer, I say.

Dexter has certain amusement to blood.



Ergo, the blood-spatter job he got at police department. It's not scientific per se, but the crave for blood what makes him good at his job. Freakay I tell ya!

FOUR

Do you recognize this man?


Source NYTimes Theatre article.
Hint. Equus. The wizardry no longer boy wizard.
In New York he's the stable boy.
Omigod Omigod! I wanna see
Don't You? ;)


I'll post more if something else comes up.
that's all folks!

when you want things so badly, you tend to screw things up horrendously.
Things you wholeheartedly desire may not be the things you'll end up getting.
heart race, eyes rolling, brain processing and mind praying.
Tears and brain had worked up to the ultimate level, you'd think you get brain damage.


I want Wednesday.
Can i have Wednesday in my arms, God?

Fuck. i hate that i can't drive!
double fuck I don't even have a car!
i hate that i can't use the public transport! I DON'T KNOW HOW!

i hate that i have to depend on someone else for transport!
fuck fuck fuck!

How to tackle online profiling tests from the big corporates???

How strongly agree to strongly disagree decide your character in overall?

i bet they don't.
but computerized graphs are the knight in shining armor for human resources.
i bet they are.

Yeah you. You there.

Watching the news gave me the itch.
Worsen economy and man-slaughters are the daily feed. imagine that.

A news update struck me.
Irritates me.

A toddler fell out of the bedroom window of a high-rise apartment in Jakarta's most busy street.
Fell.
Just like that.
One second he's playing with a sister in their cozy bedroom, the next second, poof. out the window and landed on a neighbor's balcony.
creeps.

My head spins and kept on thinking "How?!".

Later I found out the reason.
Those lazy stupid morons who graded themselves as "top-notch" developers in Indonesia couldn't careless to include safety precautions for high-rise buildings!

Windows on high-rise apartments are exactly the same as windows built on 2-level houses. Open 'em wide! the only safety you could get is if tenants put 'safety grill' (teralis) on their windows. This wouldn't be necessary if these developers could even care about tenants' safety at first!

Next time you pass by apartment buildings anywhere around Jakarta, tilt your head up and check their windows. I'm sure they're all the wide-open windows and some have safety grill. imagine the ones who don't have?

If this tragedy weren't in Indonesia, family could easily take the developers out for compensations. Even if they could put a lawsuit now, unfortunately, I don't think the law would even permit individuals to win on the big guns.

This is stupid though.
A tod died because carelessness of adults.
yes, parents at fault too.
but this doesn't mean all faults are on them. Developers should've thought this through instead of only piling up on investment return. Ka Ching!

Gah! This irritates me much.

Why pay up almost a billion rupiahs just to have less safety at our own home.
ridiculous.

I'd rather build up a mansion somewhere in the suburb, thank you very much.

You contractors, get that cash register out of your brain for once will ya!
a kid died.
partly on your hands.

Think about it.

hands up who've had a psychotest?

i'm thinking it's slightly different from psychometric test.
Psychotest (or psikotes) is more cumbersome and waste time.

200ish questions on personality test. Shoot me.

the math is alright. not as dreadful as the psychometric type I had for banking MT test. The latter is the devil's work, I tell ya.

BUT! the final psychotest is the most interesting one.

It's mostly drawing.

first page, drew a person, people.
2nd page, make a picture from whatever lines printed on each of the 6 boxes.
3d page is writing about yourself, with every sentence starts with the word I.

What interesting was the drawing.

I'm terrible at drawing. seriously. I have a two year old's skill in terms of drawing.

So, when they told me to draw a person. I drew people! Ha!
it's not a drawing, per se. It's more like... stick people. don't even resemble human being. *sad


and for the 2nd page.
I didn't really know what to draw with only a dot, or a small line, or 2 opposite lines inside a box.

Without further thinking, I drew:
1. smiley face
2. kid up on a tree, took fruits, and give 'em to the kid on the ground. And title this: Sharing.
while you can perceive it as "stealing". LOLs
3. basketball ring with kids play 2 on 2 (dont ask). again with stick people!
4. an arrow pointing to a door with CEO label on it. HAHAHA (get it?)
5. a computer (i've run out of ideas)
6. air balloon

After they're all done I'm surprised at myself.
Ternyata I can draw!! LOL

So, what u think of my answers?
a definite brill score for psycho-test or a psycho?
*grin

I've discovered:

- newborn babies have loooooong and complicated names.

- celebrity wannabes are getting younger and younger everyday!

- muziik Indo are so catchy, at first. dull the next. fit for one hit wonders!

- I'm seeing baby Afgan everywhere on screen! boi, your voice is to-die-for tapii, i'm feeling something off about you, hm, what?

- listened to sex discussion on radio menjelang BUKA PUASA! it's a turn off, really. what mindless person would put that session at THAT hour? i mean, seriously.

- Infotainment is proven a sickening virus for the brain.

- Jakarta traffic is a kill, old story. Tapii, if you know the tricks and what not, you could go places in half hour tops! crazy huh. my driver is the master on that!

- First time Ramadan at home after a long years away, I find TV shows are quite... sinful. I'm expecting ceramah, diskusi agama, ustadz direct call. You know, like the ole times. Now, we're presented with loud noises, loud people, sexy ladies, and stupid comments. How very Ramadhan are we, Indonesia? ((hahaha blagu!)

- oh oh it's imperative to say, gays in Indo are on spotlight! come out come out the closet, you. and of course not only gays that are psychopath ya. i'm just tellin'. (i'm so infotainment minded rite now.)

- Cooking ingredients from overseas are crazy expensive!

- people stare and I don't care.


Later.

"Too bad no one told him: you can't save a damsel if she loves her distress."


Gossip Girl

"Artis beralih politikus menjadi miki tikus berlucu lucu menjerat emas bergaya primus. "




siapa dia?

“Life is stranger than fiction, sometimes”

John Travolta

Journey of life

Read vaguely on the back of your palms --- Lines cut short, Lines bent and split into two destinations.

They don’t match one another…

Soft lines eagerly want attention and meaning!

Scattered blindly on each palm,

Brushed tightly with the other long lines.

Eleka nahmen nahmen

Ah tum ah tum eleka nahmen
Eleka nahmen nahmen
Ah tum ah tum eleka nahmen

Lend a spirit ---

Lend a pair all-seeing eye ---

Lend your sights.

Prophecy do tell!

And see future right through me.

"Mencintai lebih baik daripada memaksa untuk minta dicintai."



Firabas - Spice!

"and so we follow God's Own fool. For only the foolish can tell: Believe the unbelievable and come be a fool as well"




Michael Card

Approaching the second week
There's a feeling of alienation
Not by pressure or society
But by choice

A single decision unconsciously taken
Because the feeling independence and individuality have fallen under the shell
A habit since baby and long forgotten.

It is now a rising uproar of a mute lion inside this wooden shed.
A self-destructive animal locked in a cage.
Not by its master. But by its own choice!

This catastrophic circumstance needs again months even years self-therapy.
Psychic would make a fortune if able to hold their hands on it.
The situation has long cured.
It’s back! Marched with millions of troops
And eat alive its rot numbing brain.


heyho! the witch is dead.

Blinded with beauties and sparkles of superficial glam

My eyes hurting, my ears bleeding

Bystanders lurk Smokes the giants,

Lavish rich and famous the lifestyle.

Aren’t we the mundane society?

Brainwashed on artificial materialistic.

It’s a friend, the three monkeys.

--- Close eyes, ears and mouth.

It’s neither a bliss inside out!

yes, this is home.

Cat’s home… and Purring.

This cat is back!

Quietly nesting in its somewhat cozy shield

After a staggering adventure over the southern hemisphere

Now digging the old roots

Minutes before my final departure ---

The wait is near.

I’m leaving all things familiar, all smells tender, and all sounds kind.

Future is still a haze.

Changes will be challenged.

I’m coming back to my roots ---

And prepare to tango with chance.

I say farewell

My heart wishes not to be forever a goodbye.

ma last post from glenlyon.
ma last post in melbourne.

Time has come.

I'll see you home!