To Question or not to Question.
Apa bener dia negara adikuasa among other nations in the world?
tapi biarpun disini status dia dipertanyakan, tetep aja makhluk2 awam sperti kita berkiblat ke negara sang adikuasa itu. tapi kenapa?
apa iya krn dia negara (sangat) maju dan makmur so hidup kita bisa terjamin?
Nggak juga! rate kemiskinan, crime, dan sgala tetek bengek hitamnya kehidupan juga tinggi disana. tapi tetep aja, di mata awam the brand USA (if I may say that) diliat sperti istana megah yang terlihat berkilauan dari jarak jauh. sperti cerita fairy tale, setiap hamba yang awam pasti bermimpi tinggal di istana nan megah itu. makmur dan terjamin. sperti mimpi2 UUD '45 kita bukan? :p
yg herannya, england itu negara super makmur dan maju juga. i mean, it has more history dan super masterminds in all aspects. tapi knapa bukan dia yang jadi adikuasa dunia ini? instead malah amerika yang negara buangan inggris ribuan taun lalu menjadi big brother to other nations. apakah untuk suatu kontroversial leadership lebih mudah meng-attract massa daripada kepemimpinan usang Sang Raja dan Ratu? jadi, heritage don't necessarily the key ingredient to good leadership then?
Sperti yang diungkapkan Joey di "thank you for smoking" what's best about America?
is LOVE.
is it trying to say what Hugh Grant said? that "Love is... all around"?
cheeky.
but not entirely honest, nor true.
So what you reckon makes America the best among others?
uncle sam's land
MET ROVE!
ROVE MCMANUS! the one and only Aussie Celeb I know.... and I MET HIM!
norak ya? bodo!
Jamie Aditya part 2 began. lol
nah, not exactly like JA scene at PIM.
but anyway, guess where I met Rove?
AT WORK!
when i was about to start my shift and there he was, queuing to be served.
I tot my super was going to ask me to take over the dude at the register where Rove's queuing.. but NOOOO! insted she told me to go to the register at the other end! WTF!
tp gpp, finally I met an Aussie celeb and I KNOW his a celeb! unlike the case for that blake dude from neighbours whom I met years ago at Sportsgirl, not knowingly he's a celebrity! LOL
Miss d, remember that time? We were about to take a picture wif aussie celeb, but I din want to cos I don know him? nyesel juga sih skrg... haha..
Just wish that he's rove, then i'd definitely wait in line for piccies! lol.
Phew!
I need to act my age now.
Don't Stop Believin'
She took the midnight train goin' anywhere
Just a city boy, born and raised in south Detroit
He took the midnight train goin' anywhere
A singer in a smokey room
A smell of wine and cheap perfume
For a smile they can share the night
It goes on and on and on and on
Strangers waiting, up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching in the night
Streetlight people, living just to find emotion
Hiding, somewhere in the night
Working hard to get my fill,
everybody wants a thrill
Payin' anything to roll the dice,
just one more time
Some will win, some will lose
Some were born to sing the blues
Oh, the movie never ends
It goes on and on and on and on
Don't stop believin'
Hold on to the feelin'
Streetlight people
*journey
and we welcome, River Samuel
He's my AGE, 23.. and yet he has THREE BABIES! I wanna say congrats, but there's also another thought in mind....
all in all, congrats dude. you're again, three giant leaps ahead of me. :P
wat a cutesies babies, they are!! all of em look girls thou.. sorry ezraa!! *kiss2* == sok kenal!!
weird me
since i've been looking for a new place to live, im having a weird obsession. lately, i dream of having a nice, fab, huge, modern contemporary townhouse somewhere in a nice suburb. pff add a white picket fence and .... Whaa! the housewife stereotype of the 70s! LOL
a girl can dream, can she not? :) the house, i mean.
Today, I was just flipping over the newspaper and saw the listing of real estate around the country. fab houses! Totally dream houses ever! tapi nyah nyah.. harganye coong! the "cheapest" is 1 million DOLLAR okee!! duit darimenonggggggg!!!!
marrying a rich dying old man is an option. but whueekk! I aint that desperate over a million dollar mansion okeee!
on another current update..
Ramadan is here.
Minal Aidin Wal Faidzin. I miss Ramadan in Indo. The feeling is never the same here.
I miss Eid Ul Fitr at my mum's hometown. I even miss having to rush for shower with on the 1st day Eid Ul Fitr. Imagine, 1 bathroom and 10 people in the house.. BLOOD BATH!
Missing you all so much. Including all the newborns in the family that I have not yet meet! :)
cepret kedupret
Just between "i wish i could" and "i don't know".
it's a mellow down at the basement.
time to shut down the ott friendliness of friendster network.
am outraged!
last night,
she says reality speaks differently,
he says willingness to try is non-existent.
isht.
cepret kedupret sittin' on the corner of Nowhere Road.
RESPECT MY AUTHORATOR
you know what, when i logged into my gmail account, i start to remember what my lecturer told us in class. the amazing invention of google is not just as a search engine, but also as a global storage database of every living being in this earth. so everything we "googled" is stored in their own massive "server".
in a nutshell, i reckon people at google corp know exactly what we've been wandering around on the web. invasion of privacy? well, since internet was legally explored outside the pentagon.. the word privacy and confidential are no longer in the dictionary. so, google is just expanding it alot further. truth to be told, there's no such thing as confidential record in our lives. there is at least one external party who has our most treasured record number, that is, our bank account number or social security number (if youre sited in the US).
Google? well, they invade into our most inner thoughts. if you can put it that way. everything that you've been searching for always re-appear in your gmail account sponsored link bar (located above the message inbox). Thats what i recognized anyway. When i first realised the link bar, i was kinda confused. thinking, how do these links relates to what i've been searching for lately? for instance, at that time i was keen to begin cooking 101. so i "googled" whatever's there for recipes and voila! on the link bar in my gmail account also appear these links to the foods i've been looking for. surprise surprise!
but thats only the simplest example of a simple mind like mine.
when you think it further, what about those important search links from the government, banks, corporate alliances or even corporate competitors? although they might have firewall security within their network, but is not impossible to hack 'em given the data may just been stored inside "the google's brain".
I also heard that Chinese (or taiwanese or korean?) government have signed an agreement with google corp to buy sumtin about this google's search engine. well, i wasnt clear about the tid-bits. but bottom line, this government can easily locate whatever that exists inside of the google's brain that it bought. MEANING, this chinese/taiwanese/korean government will be able to know about our information as well! again, think it further... what if it's the account for other important affiliances or stock market indexes? Go figure.
the question is, does every revolutionary invention means to challenge the existing law so that enable them to invent a breakthrough without having legal limitations?
The life to remember
today's the memorial service for the crikey dude. Steve Irwin.
It's a celebration of Irwin's life, they said.
bindi bid farewell to her daddy.
Millions of people can't help but to feel the lost.
"The crocs are crying" says David Wenham.
Crocs, your mate's gone.
Everyone will miss him dearly. Kids lost their hero.
He was their 'superman'.
the world shed the tears they can no longer hold inside.
This is the final goodbye..
As said by Cameron Diaz, JT, Hugh Jackman,
............ Farewell mate.
HOT HOT HOT
Its a frickin bloody HOT HOT weather today!
its 4.30 in the afternoon, im waiting fo my train to come.
As I was waiting, I see summer in near.
OFF them skinnies & boots, ON the hotties! Flaunt 'em booties, show sum legs!
I see yellow, blue, green all around.
Peach and nectarines stacked ready in Victoria Market.
Yet, the calendar shows the month September.
I wonder, does summer come in advance this year?
Wish the same goes for semester break!
black tears
That long black satin lace suits with your black heart.
I perish, I mourn.
Drown in my own black tears.
Let me carry on to the dreamers skye.
When I fade away, I fade away.
My heart grows cold and bleak.
The dark night is my only companion.
Whisper to the bright stars in summer sky. "I'm still here"
Life is like a masquerade.
We shall dance the night away.
I called, I wait.. but to no avail.
An affair to remember.
me, my black sequin dress, and jimmy choos.
Where art thou? Can't you hear me calling?
And I Whisper to the bright stars in summer sky.
I'm Still Here.
Ajig na, here.
Emotional roller coaster. 'tis not allowed, they said.
Hormonal syndrome. Lose ends.
Don't let the face fooled you. All tear apart inside.
Sarang.
The means to an end.
Where to? How to? Who would want to?
Doctor, Doctor, Please.
The battlefield is yet begun...
I fear the year end fading away before my eyes.
razorblade
Won't you watch me bleed?
These walls seem to whisper goodbye. Disturb me from continuous smiles and laughter
the gleaming ambiance that night don't kiss away the uneasy heart.
in the crowds. singled-out is not an option or a possibility.
why void persist?
These eyes glare to every inch of the room.
The candles brighten up the place, singing happy birthday.
I've misplaced the brightest star. It shines not to be forever remembered.
I wouldn't let you go. I won't!
but there's no assurance that you won't.
I'm at the acute "S" stage. kod kod!
I feel like screaming on top of my lung
"GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH"
drowning to the darkest eternity.
my heart bleeds.
turn the radio up. close our eyes and pretend to fly
Just between "I wish I could" and "I don't know".
Rain is splashing up between her toes
She doesn't know her own area code
She's the picture of a heart of gold.
On the edge of depression unknown.
have loads things in mind. like usual, make my own catastrophies.
my ears hurt when i hear the sound. it shrieks.
sigh, am the devil's child.
--
i cant help to reminisce those years when i hear the songs.
thats exactly what im doing.
theyll never stop bugging me, will they? althou i dont want them to.
Turn the radio up, and push the pedal to the ground,
... gaze at starry skies,
close our eyes and pretend to fly
if i have a convertible car i'd do exactly just that. feel the air wipes away the sorrow and just pretend to fly far away from all the bitter crowds.
He has his penny to hold on to. Lucky penny.
--
you know what
she knows me too well. i cant help but wonder if being open and honest are better than being private and unexpressive? does an open-book is more enjoyable to read than a closed one? althou they said to know a great book is to read it page by page 'til the end cover. the former sounds a lot preferable than the latter then?
am rambling when my mind wudnt stop thinking things. creating one annoyance scenario over another.
Hff..
Current state: In urgent need of upbeat rhythm.
campur sari
September 10th.
The beginning of my ADSL bill period. So midnite last night was a celebration.
FINALLY no more 64 kbps speed ever again!
well, intinya sih.. i can watch K-Dramas live streaming! LOL
anyway
me and my 2 close mates having the same .... umhh, craving. yeah, put it that way.
beginilah yang dia beberkan ke dunia,
ngerasain punya gebetan a.k.a cowo yang disukai a.k.a bisa bikin deg-degan, hihihihi
hahahahaha
I'm waiting for the sza sza zsu.
:::::::: mak! what about my request eh? bisa dilaksanakan tidak? hohoho ;))
talking nonsense.
ps: have another interview. different company. it's a casual job thing. not related to my course. but shud be good money. hopefully will nail the interview. need the cash and shifts. wish me luck
Dia, Pippi Longstocking, dan Saya.
hehe.. nulis lagi.
wait wait, lately tulisan gw pake bahasa gado-gado banget ya? hm.. lagi males mikir inggris.
anyhoo.. aku kangen tulisannya diaaaa!! siapa dia?
si penulis populer muda yang tulisannya oh so intimidating skali! *at least buat gue* hehe
dan bener aja loh gue... the primary "diary" is closed krn terlalu banyak public attention. begah. iya lah, sapa juga bisa bebas ngluarin uneg2 sgala macem tetek bengek dari your dirtiest thoughts sampe ke yang very daring ideas. ujug-ujug malah di plagiat. halah.. buat penulis2 kondang, mereka merugi laah! biarpun udah banyak yg namanya copyright protection macamnya creative commons license yang di templokin di side bar blog2 itu. gue gak tau persis apaan ccl itu.. tp dari the word license it's sorta protection untuk "penulis2" blog itu untuk secure their works from plagiarism. at first, ok lah there's a new concept of copyright protection on the web. tapi then again, i reckon it's a loadda crap lah. it's a friggin fuckin blog gitu loh! yang dengan seenak jidat kupipes
Sperti yang pernah gue tanyakan... apa gue ama dia sdikit ada kemiripan? Tapi tentu saja.. alter ego dia lebih extreme. Hff you had me to tattooed a huge questionmark on your face. Wondering which one is the true you.
I couldn't understand it.
Hm.
Oh well, a closing quote from Will,
"Yeah. What's that about, Pippi?"
perfect.holiday.collage
Alesan knapa ganti si kulit schizilly ini lagi?
yah, same ol' same ol'.
saya bosan, titik.
alesan lain knapa kali ini temanya sungguh sangat bertolak belakang dengan yang sebelumnya. dari gelap menyeramkan dan sekarang penuh dengan warna.
collage yang gue bikin dengan sangat amatirnya ini sbnrnya ada artinya. baru diajarin sama guest lecturer dari TNS. The theme is about "your perfect holiday" and the collage is about MY Perfect Holiday. Apart from it, you can actually see right through me using these visuals.
After mixing all pics together, I found out that the perfect holiday dont necessarily be constant option. A mix of outdoorsy, sporty and solitude is more than you could ask for. two elements necessary though, laughter and a relax ambiance. Although I prefer places with alot of green grasses around, bright blue sky, historical towns, or back to the simplest nature.. the isolated village. saking isolatednya, i miss my grandparents hometown..
pedesaan kecil 30km dari kota Solo. saking terpencilnya, mau telpon harus ke wartel, atau pake hape mesti mojok2 deket antena. saking isolatednya, kadang harus nyebrang kali ato jalan di pematang sawah untuk nyekar ke eyang2ku.
gak nyangka, gue bakalan kangen ama desa kecil itu. i spent all my childhood holidays in that village. Uhh, aku kangennn... sepinya tempat itu. tenangnya tempat itu. keramahan penduduk tempat itu. aku kangeennn...
Bungee, canoeing dan other once-in-a-lifetime aktifitas juga gak jadi pengecualian. Hey, it's a holiday! time to not think things and just go for it! away the fear.
Tapi, pendukung terpenting di kala liburanku.. TEMAN.
liburan sendiri? blom pernah ngalamin.. tp i'd think i wont enjoy as much. theyre the must haves for holiday.
Liburan gak harus pergi keluar kota, keluar negri kan?
Thats what I love about this city.
I can just go out of my apartment and enjoy the weather while walking alone in the park. Just sit there watching people pass by and take some interesting pictures with my mobile cam.
last but not least, there's always the option of sleeping!
tidur sepuas2nya. bermalas2an under your warm doona. dreaming for the better days.
hm, know me better yet?
so.. what's your perfect holiday?
JD and I
I just realised.
I'm J.D
but lacking Dr. Cox, Turkleton, Elliot, and Carla around.
so i'm a lost J.D seeking identity.
hey, that rhymes! :p
updates:
SATU: saya baru nyadar kalo tugas brand audit gak segampang iprit yang dibayangkan. uanying! paper yang udah dikumpulin di balikin lagi.. karena oh karena.. gak sesuai ama yang di harapkan si ibu lecturer. halahh.. mati akuu!
DUA: mesti bikin survey buat the damn paper thing. alamakjikipe where can i get respondents with age group 30-50 y.o, married and/or have family, technology enthusiasts, dan tinggal di ostrali!! oeeh.. gini nih sok pinter milih2 topik yang sok keren. kelabakan sndiri!
TIGA: AKU TIDAK DITERIMA KERJA (see earlier posting). hohoho.. cah edan! gak diterima kerja kok ya seneng. so stupid ay. on monday, i was nervous everytime there's a beep from mobile. afraid that it'll be from that company. lol mbodo!
yeah thats the only updates for now.
ugghh piye iki tugasku yaaaa..
hm, must go library to get the text so can figure out what to do next.
so lazy ah. but good weather.. just go?
CRIKEY! He's gone!
Another heartbreaking news... a death of the world's wildlife warrior.
Steve Irwin, the conservationalist, the Australian wildlife icon, the true Aussie! passed away yesterday while filming a documentary of deadliest marine life. A stingray spiked him right in the chest.
The man was always full of life. Some say he's larger than life. At 44, he lived life to the fullest. Not many people get to experienced that.
Honestly, i was never fond of the guy. sometimes i reckon he's a bit over the top with the crikey crocs remarks.... and whats with that thick Aussie accent?!
but yeah, one thing that I know, to leave mark in this world, you have to go to the extremes. Steve Irwin, did just that.
He'll be greatly missed from people around the world. No other man will ever be just like him.
Farewell mate.
goodbye, farewell, adieu
nangis gak brenti2 sampe kpalaku pening. mata jadi bengkak.
hff... she's so loved, by many. not only the loved ones but also the unknown others. in every part of the globe. thats amazing for someone who's not Princess Di.
goodbye, fareweel, adieu
zidan syifa dearests, your mum's oh-so-proud of you both. she'll look down from heaven above to see you dancing through life.
tears shed from my eyes and dunno when to stop. i have no control of it.
the heart stroke deep by a sharp-edged knife.
i dont know them. they dont know me.
yet the sadness felt so close.
never thought i'd cry so hard for someone i barely knew.
Selamat tinggal teh inong.
midnite managerie (yet again)
sunday just began. 48 minutes ago.
you know what,
earlier i was asked to do a shift at coles from 3 PM to 12 midnite.
If i accepted it, I'd be on my way home now.
tired.
exhausted.
smelly. =P
but ey, i said i cant work today.
not that i can't.
i just dont want to.
see, thats why i love casual jobs.
no commitments.
flexible.
*hff* funny.
people asked for shifts.
even desperate to get some longer shifts.
why?
more shifts. more money. easy peasy.
i dont need money?
yes. i do.
but the hardship in getting 'em, is un-higly necessary.
snob?
yeah, maybe.
no no. lazy is more likely. yeah, suits me well. no no,
suits me perfect ly!
hm, immature.
premature?
hm.
the weekend just started. you know what i heard today?
two people passed away this weekend.
the mum was a fellow blogger, she wrote about her happy family and the love for cooking.
the grams was my great grams by marriage from my mum's side.
Both were the people i hardly knew.
Both were loved immensely by their families and friends. They'll be greatly missed.
We're not to question God for his doing nor to ask Him to undo what had happened.
but yeah, we made peace with great grams. but the mum just starting her life, her babies are yet enter school. Don't they got to ask why You took her from them, God?
She's just 32, great grams was 80-something years old.
I guess, nothing's certain in life is it? Dare I ask for fairness?
I'm shaken with the thought of asking You whatever's in mind.
My mum asked me to SMS my aunt and gramma.
5 Hours later...
I yet to send them any sms.
you see, condolences are not the easiest word to say.
how can the other person feel whether you're being sincere or just the urge need to sympathize?
sincerity seems lacking when words dont seem fit.
Innalillahi Wa inalillahi Roji'un.
Dearests,
May you rest in peace. Say hello to big Man up there Ok.
be good.
smile for us from up above.
ps: nothing is certain, whether you're 23 or 93.
the big Man holds the key.
it hit me.
i wrote a whole lot earlier. as usual, the stupid comp restart by itself. bah. everything's erased. cant remember what ive written.
point is, i jes realised i might get a real job this time. a job that suits the course im currently studying. you wud think i'd be extremely ecstatic. well, i dont.
reason being, it's a reality check for me. i might be doing the thing every student will be doing after graduate from uni. well, im not yet graduated, but hopefully soon. so it's like a huge training for me. but im not taking it so well. i was just thinking whether i want a full-time job at this time. it's not a really full-time, but 4 days 9-4.30 per week I reckon falls into the full-time category. although ill be working 3 days a week in that time frame, since i have uni. the other one day will be spent during weekends or night shifts. thinking about the working hours already makes me tremble.
at times, i'd beg for any job to come along but when it's there in front of me, im too chicken shit to reach it. it's a friggin real job, for God sake! I know, although it dont require a dior suit or prada pumps to work, but it's pretty much a worth-the-experience kinda job. It will make pretty of my resume later on. =D
it gets me all panicky cos all the work requires me to speak non-stop for 7 hours. although fluency already pass the average bar, but perfection is still out of reach. not sure whether i'd be able to do all the small talks necessary to reach the quota for every project. GAH! im so confuse i might explode!
:( :( :( :(
shall i just go for it? no fuss, no thinking, nothing.
alhtough there will be no escape afterwards. theyre not asking for a temp, not a three months staff. am i prepared for it?
my mind's so messed up!! noone knows what im feeling now, i bet. i have a mind of my own, that i know. pretty much screwed up in the head.
