Invisible wall

That infinity wall I built within heart
where I locked you in.
You scraping for a key
Or prison break attempt.

Breaking loose,
Torn down the wall.
and eventually oneself

Memoirs of the day

Today was my 2nd day after being relocated to South Jakarta branch.
With hesitant, I accepted the relocation. Insisting only for a week.
At the back of my mind, I know management would consider extending my stay. I have no say.

The work envo is extremely different and location if Frikken far!
If I to stay here permanently, I have to sacrifice my social life. Which I have no intention to do so atm.

Basically, the branch only have 8 people in 2 storey home-office building. Only for 2 days but the people do not speak to each other. Well, they spoke.
But not chat. not a friendly chat at least. All about work work work. That kills.

Maybe because manager and supervisor are all in one room. We don't have cubicles. Just one massive open space and chomp us all into it.

I don't mind temporarily placed there. Please not permanent.
I'd go crazy there I'm sure. I have found my comfort zone back in head office, but why you move me?

Up to this moment, I'm finding job that suits me best. That I don't need extreme adjustment in any means. At this branch, I need massive adjustment, mentally.

I grew tired for changes and adjusting. I want comfort.
GAH! lemme out lemme out.

Or you'll find me hopping places again. Which I don't particularly fond of, but if I have to --just to find that comfort-- I will hop places.

Can you meet me halfway?

My Blank Canvas. Ready to be Painted..

I found those words while peeping through my past -- (through this blog).

It doesn't exactly says that. My past was rather... glum.
The exact words were 'a blank canvas and not ready to be painted'.
See what I mean?

I'm moving forward. To a better and positive mind.
Eventhough my life's a blank, but I'm ready for it to be painted.

Bring on the colors!

Gay friend in Jakarta

So get this.

I've never had a gay friend before. Well, there was this one ex-colleague, but back then he didn't know I know. Top it off, we weren't that close, so he doesn't count.

Anyway.
This gay friend I'll be speaking of (or rather, write of) is still in-the-closet. Not so much in the closet as his behavior goes, but he hasn't dare to come out, out. Means, he doesn't say it out loud.

His daily attitude has shown that he's curious to this world. He doesn't shy showing his interest to men to our colleagues. Oh, did I say he's my current colleague? Well, he is.

He doesn't say he's gay, or we saying it to him. So to my understanding, he's borderline.
At a point where he couldn't hold his urges, but another he couldn't proudly to come out. Social and family wise. Not that he's married, but towards his parents and siblings. Often times, I just wanna say OK for him to come out. On the other side, I wouldn't want his mum to kill me if she finds out I pushed his son to come out.

I was awestruck when he texted me only to ask 'how to approach guys'.
Dude, eventhough we both after men, but you're talking to the wrong crowd. If i knew how, those straight men won't be getting married to other girls. Hmm.. maybe he and I should buy lots and lots 'How To' books.

But anyway, everytime I asked if he's serious or if he really wants to find a same-sex partner.. A jokester -I think- would instantly answer: Nah, just mucking around.

But no. his answer had me convinced.
It was like this: 'I don't dare'.

Give him few nudges, I bet he'd dare to come out and maybe then leave Indonesia. To be free of prejudice and judgment eyes.

Not that I'm judging or nosy to even blog about him here, but he's interesting in my circle. I've never had a gay friend, or those even close to the gays. Their crowd's not weird, but sometimes if you're not bestbuds with them.. you kinda have to know the mood around.

That's what I'm feeling always.
He and I aren't bestbuds. Knowing he's still in-the-closet, the comments I told him couldn't be too blunt either.
It's kinda difficult. I have to tiptoe - in supporting but not too much.

This is why my gaydar ain't working properly in Jakarta. Too many gray areas.
He is or he isn't.

Metrosexual men aren't helping either! I say if men want to be Metrosexual, there has to be law that insist them to be married first. Ergo, fading the gray areas. These men just confused us single ladies to finding the right Mister!

Are you confused too?

Radja Ketjil

So..

A friend and I had a sudden lunch date this Sunday. I've always wanted to try on this restaurant called 'Radja Ketjil' (lit. means little king). They have a branch near our homes. In Tebet, to be exact.

The concept is peranakan. I'm not sure the english for it.
Basically, the food is a mixed of malay, indo and chinese.

Around 12-ish we arrived. The decor outdoor is convincing and the inside is homey, with a distinct chinese decor. The place was very quiet by the time we were there. I don't mind quiet.

It wasn't too difficult to decide what we wanted to eat. I ordered hainan chicken rice, my friend had porridge with kung pao chicken. We both were curious by Vietnamese coffee with milk, so had those too. The menu is filled with funny names. One remember most is 'Nasi goreng pengen kawen' (lit. fried rice wants to be wed).

The verdict.
My hainan chicken rice was so-so, but very much edible. I wouldn't mind a second taste.
I tried the porridge and kung pao, they tasted more divine than my food. Although I'd say the herbs aren't rich enough for Asian dish. Given the place and the food, the price is spot-on. It wasn't too pricey. The range would be around 20rb-40rb for main dishes. They have dim sum hours too! 8-11 am with only 10rb. Really cheap, I reckon. Must try for breaky there sometime.

I love the place, the food, and what's more..
it gives FREE WI-FI !!



Definitely must do a second round soon. :)



Jl. Tebet Barat Dalam Raya No. 19,
Jakarta Selatan
Tel. 021-83703227, 83703236

Louis Vuitton and Paris..... (and Indonesia)

Most of fashionistas probably have heard the relationship between the city and the high-end brand.

Yes,

Louis Vuitton and Paris.

For those not in the know, here how the story goes.
LV becomes cheap in Paris.
Hm.. cheap is too strong word. I'll rephrase.

LV becomes significantly affordable for branded enthusiasts.

A friend is on a Europe trip and made a short visit to Paris. It's holiday season, and whaddaya know, LV is on sale. ON SALE!

Here is where Indonesians become important in this topic.

It's no surprise the potential shoppers are mostly Asians, with high percentage to be Indonesians. Parisians shopgirl loooves Indonesian shoppers, or so I've heard. We bought not only one, but the whole lot.
...... for bags.

Who said we're poor? ha!

Don't underestimate Indonesians. We love SALE, we worship capitalism, we're actually very generous (to retailers), and we have money (but don't tell anyone).

I mean, would you buy LV, Hermes or Chanel wholesale? We do!

Oh man, don't you just love our country.

I had a feeling

Oh,

For 4 months the feeling grew.
I fell in love.
but fall out of it soon after.
Just because...

He's too precious if he's to be out of my life.
so he doesn't need to know anything else but..

:)

Hello Yellow Julio?

I meant, Hello July! But Julio rhymes more with yellow. not that it matters.

So.
HELLO !!!!

Seems ages ago I've blogged here! Jakarta made me numb. I had nothing to write and can't be bothered to even think a topic. Not even my very own daily journal.

Twitter also the main reason for this hiatus.
Apparently, 140 characters is enough for my rants. Kind of makes your brain dumb for a bit since it's been idling for few months.

What's happening in my side of town?

Well... I've nailed a job I wanted. It's been going for 5 months now and I enjoyed every bits of it! The bickering, the craziness, the learning, the knowledge, the training, the excitement. Yeah, all that jazz. This is my training ground, my stepping stone. So I have to make the most of it before I could leap elsewhere.

The office only have about 20 staff, including the big boss to office boy. Quite small office when compared with my previous company. Having small environment as this could have its good and bad.

Good thing, we know each other quite well. Even me as newbie, I sort of know each personality of people at work.
This however leads to the bad.

Some staff at work seems to have rot in that boring job but too lazy to or couldn't getaway from it. Hence the work they should be doing isn't 100 percent.

The Job desk seems to overlap from one person to another.

For example, what just happened today and frustrates me to infinity was today when a senior staff told me to do HER JOB, which is not part of my job description and is not part of my department.

There's also a marketing officer.
Whom I don't think he has the SOUL to be a marketer. I've been surrounded by real marketers for years, and I don't think he even qualify to be one. From my observation, he's too introvert to be a marketer and too slow. But the big boss seems to have a very fond feeling towards him considering she kept praising him during my interview.

I often feel impatient when seeing him. When did you ever see a marketer only sits his huge butt in his office all day? Marketer should be out and about! Mingle with clients and fishing customers for sales.

I'm eyeing for his job, but after much thought... If I do ever get his job description it wouldn't be at this office!

As I said, the place is my training ground but it wouldn't be my bread and butter.
Surprisingly, in my position, there's someone who've been there for almost 10 years! Shocking.

I'm still tiptoeing at this job, but so far I've no major complaints.

I'm still eyeing for Melbourne. Hopefully, someday, this job will take me there.. :)

For now,
I'm good.