Just few hours approaching to 2012.
Prophecy said it's the end of the world.
So what can we expect when the clock countdown to 00.00?
Are we still preparing any 2012 resolutions?
I do.
I didn't really remember the prophecy. So for this once, I envisioned my future plan, believing this could be it. The one that is proposed to me, for my future. InsyaAllah, that is.
Everything seems at its' place.
Having him in a different city.. has its course.
Having him in my life, has set a whole different perspective.
It would be time for me to deal with 'things', those I was escaping from.
The future I've never had in mind before.
It may not be exactly the future I'll walk through, but, envisioning it now as such is already a different story to my previous mindset.
I was't prepared for this, but now I know I'm ready for this.
To be with him, to be in a different city, to be in a completely different career.
Hold on, I'm not getting married. Nuoh! not yet.
Bismillah I'm walking towards the purpose that my family wants, especially my mum.
Maybe it's my life purpose. No matter how much I've refused to obey, at the end of the day, I know that I have to do this. I was meant to do this.
Bismillahirohmanirrohim, I surrender all thoughts and effort to You. Should this be the life purpose You gave me, I'll make my best effort to pursue what is given to me. Should this be the right course I'm supposed to walk on to, I'll walk this through with love and contentment. Finally, I've made peace (or towards that). InsyaAllah, with support from all my loved ones.
2012, another life chapter to be written.
Let's do this with all heart's content.
2012 is around the corner..
Aku, kamu.. dan dia.
When things got beserk and the other guy comes in to lighten the mood.
Just because he is the bestfriend and not the boyfriend.
Heart matters aint for the faint heart. I grew tired of tears.
Could the bestfriend become good boyfriend?
Maybe not.
Then there is us.
2011 is coming to its end.
Before we say farewell, a recap wouldnt be much harmful, would it?
2011 played a roller coaster emotion in my life. Learning all kinds of emotion. The closure on a dear loved one is the beginning of another enormous feeling i have never experienced before.
My plans... Ah, screw them.
2011.. is unexpectedly a year full of self-reflect.
I bid goodbye to melbourne this year. This time is for real. I chose jakarta, with all my heart's content.
I wont forget how it raised me.
2011...
is when him and I become us. An old friend coming out of the blue..
We still have a long road ahead. We're parted by different cities. We're 2 very different individuals. We live in a very opposite lives. Him and i to become us wasnt a smooth ride. But i'm very grateful that he wants to be by my side. Regardless.
Our story is just a baby. Tiny and fragile.
Hopefully, our prayers will bring us to a strong and mature lifelong journey. InsyaAllah, amin.
2011,
Thank you.
To have helped me to choose people over place.
I left my adolescence in melbourne. I will live my adulthood in indonesia. Happily, with all heart's content. InsyaAllah.
Hopefully, with him too.
