Thanks boy. For the laughs!

On a Saturday arvo, his Facebook status says " ... is in bed in his undies.. oh yeah."




if any straight guys would ever publish that on their Facebook, raise your hand please.

saturday morning bliss!

I love this saturday... :) :) :)

unexpected news.
and they all come from the almighty facebook.

ahh.. thanks Mark Zuckerberg for facebook.


the most unexpected one.
appear out of nowhere and asking permission.
psyched! I hold the monitor too tight.

YOU! yes, YOU! especially you.
kriwil hitam,thanks for the memory :)
*halah.

I'm smiling more than usual on this very morning Saturday. :) :) :) :)

Life in Cartoon Motion

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' everyday

I hear the tune in this middle of the night.
And realized, It was a pretty good memory and will not fade away.
I'm still not over MIKA..
His tunes had taken me to cloud nine and I only jumped a couple of levels down.

They won't go away, babe.

as far as I can remember, Mika still is the kriwil hitam.
he he he cheeky.
Yeah, Kriwil Hitam.
Will always be around as long as Mika's around.
It'll never be forgotten.

fresh from the oven

did i tell?
he's in a musical. Oh how very Jay Rodriguez of you.
Currently playing at Melbourne Uni.
Can I see your musical, dear? Can I? Can I? ;)

Hot Now

"I create illusory worlds - it's not escapism, it's processing reality to make it a little more fun and a little more liveable."

M I K A








What's Hot Now?
InStyle says MIKA. I say MIKA. You say?
damn you bitches, It's MIKA 'course!

I dont care if hes gay. Well, the looks and his dancing give that away. He reminds me of a past memory. Lucu, Love Today is on Myspace playlist too. You like him, don't you? since you both are much alike. he he. I'm creating my own illusory world too, you know. Worse comes to worst, delusion is what it may bring. HAHA.

Ah, "Wha-ever". The trademark.

Ah, Maliq.

seperti bodoh.
820PM swan st.
tram 70 itu tak kunjung datang.
Aah.

iPodku sayang mulai mengecewakan.
aku bosan.

Recently played.
Shuffle.

Maliq & D'essential ~ harus bagaimana.
"Tapi bisa bilang apa jika hati berbicara
Apakah ini cinta atau keadaan memaksaku merasakan
Tak pernah ku menyangka tapi harus bagaimana
setiap hari kau Tanya bagaimana hatiku sekedar memastikan"



he he he
tersenyum bodoh.
Aaah. Maliq.
you brought back memories.
tepat di depan pintu itu aku berdiri... kamu menyanyikan lirik itu.
aah. sungguh tidak lucu.
saat kulihat ke dalam.. hanyalah ruangan putih lengang tanpa siapa.
tanpa dia.

memang benar adanya.
Sophie Fisher bilang: "A melody is like seeing someone for the first time. The physical attraction. Sex. But then, as you get to know the person, that's the lyrics. Their story. Who they are underneath. It's the combination of the 2 that makes it magical."

aahh. sungguh bodoh.

pieces of paper

looking at these smudged papers i realize that from today onwards, things will be different.
the numbers show it. times changing... people too.
i guess, time's moving on.
and my mind kept shouting, they're just pieces of paper. why take it too deep.
as if the answers are easily verbalize.

the dandy newman - saturday blues

its been months that I long for Saturdays than any other days of the week. The clock on the wall ticking slowly to reach the big three.
tick tock tick tock.
When it hits the number three. The happy hour starts!
that was any other Saturdays.

Today's a different story.
Its time for the glum Saturday blues.
the lead actor dandy newman is out of the picture.
The tall slender curly swishy has vanished.
you'd think the door will open wide and someone greets you with a warm hello. The door will always slides open... people walk in and out thousands of times. but none is you're expecting.

It is and will be Saturday blues.
It's similar to Mika's tune. It's the dandy newman...
welcoming the wintery blues.



Took a right to the end of the line
Where no one ever goes.
Ended up on a broken train with nobody I know.
But the pain and the (longings) the same.
(Where the dying
Now I’m lost and I’m screaming for help.)
mika - relax take it easy

demon of the night

Dont you ever just stare up the dark ceiling and browse through the aisles of thoughts? Hear the sound of ticking clock so loud in your ear, it almost drives you insane.

Tick tock tick tock
saying its three oclock.

Emilie singing the lullaby. The trick to get some shut eyes.
When the sun awakes, this Sunday has ended.

And suddenly I remember,
A farewell that was sadly forgotten...
Cry in deep sleep till your heart's content.
A proper bye and missing-you-hug are just hollow gestures.

Then I fell asleep,
silently whispers goodbye to you...

it's the demon of the night
the darkness and you.

Verse 1

Verse 2

mirror mirror on the wall...who's the prettiest of them all?

its been pouring rain in the land downunder.
our driest season has fairly recovered. Yarra river flooded, which is good.
Rainbow sometimes appear to show-off its bright colors after a series of raindrops.
A rainbow managed to cloud my judgement.
and never to dissapear.

i love the rain.
and the rainbow.
but nevermore see the beauty.

the rainbow slowly fades.
i see now a clear sky.
will things be different now?

Fools corner

when youre hooked. youre hooked.
no escape. no way out.
its a curse.
bitter misery. its unreal.
rainbow always shines after the rain.
it shines, and always shines.
theres no sweet escape.
we might as well be strangers.

I'm drifting through the morning breeze
Colors blurring in my eyes.
saybia

kangen

Chrisye,
this legend has passed.
and stupid me just found out about it last week.

semua kata rindumu semakin membuatku tak berdaya
menahan rasa...ingin jumpa
percayalah padaku akupun rindu kamu ku akan pulang
melepas semua kerinduan... yang terpendam

Yup, meng-quote Chrisye.. gak berdayalah saya!
have no idea why. just came out of the blue.
what did? say you.
yah, begitulah...
it's only a text message away. although the time difference is a kill.
but confidence is hidden deep inside.
Gah! capedeeehh!

it's weird thou.
out of the blue, kangen.
what, who, how?
don't know.

shyyyyytt!
it's you, Uncle sam!

KUSO!

omigod omigod omigod omigod omigod omigod omigod
HES GAY! HES SOOOOO GAY ALRYTE!
KUSO!


DAMNITDAMNIT!!!
I knew it! i sensed that hes gay. srzly! he has this gay vibe all over!!!
KUSO!

just found out this morning.
wanna know how i confirmed his gayness?
yep. the almighty myspace! LOL
I'm a friggin stalker! omigod. gay stalker? u joking mate! =((
omigod! oh my effin god!
i cant stop laughing. its too early to laugh!
M*FCKINA*HOLE!!!


and u know what else?!
HE HAS A BOOOYFREEENN... !!!
damnit! Damniiiitt!!!!!

he has this gay flag butterflies all over!!!!
KUSO!

well, thats an experience. to fall for a gay dude.
bah.
never thot i'd be grace adler.
bah.

barney rubble

Corinne Bailey Rae had trouble sleeping.
Don't say that...
Could'nt I blame something else.
It's late and I'm feeling so tired
Having trouble sleeping.
Don't say...

While, on this land downunder
Sleeping is another cure.
an instant remedy...
I got my eyes shut
leads to some tranquility of mind.

but at some point, trouble sleeping gets the lowdown on whats been denied.

Ya.... begitulah!

Yesterday's news

I stare blankly at my own reflection.
I peek outside my bedroom window. It's too dark out.
Humid. The rain has finally reach this dry land downunder.
The heatwave was too much for human being to bear.
This midnite rain bring us a slight breeze.

It's the perfect topic for a small talk, innit?
I remember watching "sense and sensibility" ~ Limit your talk to the weather, Elizabeth.
It is the polite conversation, without intrusion to others' privacy.

*sigh*
I was stoopid.
I knew his stares.
I knew hes next to me.
I knew hes watching over me.

Age don't really matter. I act childish.
The younger blood knows how to politely present himself to the crowd.
I wish I didn't act in such foolish manner.
Sigh-ing wont do any good either, will it?

Short-term memory loss seems in endavour at most times.
Why for such particular incident, it's not in favor?
Wish I can easily forget.
Embarrased, Ashamed, not of those easily forgotten now is it?

It's not a momentary lapse. It's my own world. I brought it out to the open air. I was hypnotized. Or seems like so while I wasn't.
None for you to understand.

Pff.. if only hypersensitivity aint in my blood. Things would be much more... relaxed.
If only.
Ya Ya. If Only!

My iTunes has been playing songs nonstop from the "lovers' corner" playlist.
Nah. Aint nothing gotta do wif love songs. (well, not entirely!)
I'm liking John Legend's Save Room, Jet's Rip it up and Bring it on back, The Fray's how to save a life, Hanson's Hey!, and the most cheesy of all ~ Hugh Grant and Halley Bennett's Way back into love.

The latter, vocals crap but the song's really catchy.

Thats the intro to my life as of Feb 18, 2007.
catch ya later!

Stop This Train. I Want To Get Off and Go HOME Again....

Yes, I'm going home.
March 4th to be exact.
Cant wait.
I have to leave this country. Fast!
I need to escape. Escape from the feelings that will lead me to insanity.
Pff. none for you to understand.

you know what,
I'm sorta addicted to this man. Biarpun I met his clone, I prefer to think that I'm obssessed with this man and not the other.
Seems not healthy when you think about it. But trust me, it's alot healthier thought than the real one.
Ha Ha! totally in denial!

Sbodo. I feel more....relaxed that way.




OH! an early Happy Birthday to a friend on Feb 16. Have a good one. =)
Again, none for you to understand.

up on cloud number nine.

I'm on ecstasy .. Flying high from the so-called reality.
I'm intoxicated.

9 hours.
It's over midnite now. but I'm still so chirpie and fully awake.
Aneh.
After the first 3.5 hours.. I keep thinking about the energizer bunny.
Not sure if other countries have the same commercial for that energizer batteries.
But it's a bunny loaded with energizer batteries that wont stop running. It goes Whooozaa!
.. and aint stopping.

Instead of injecting me with the energizer batteries. I feed my mind with only one thought. Yes. That is the only Whoooza! for me today. My own version of energizer bunny - wrapped in a blue-black uniform. *tee hee*

My energy aint worn off yet. My eyes are still wide awake.
I'm on ecstasy.
I'm so high.
It's so bizarre.

Maybe Naoko Takeuchi had a similar thought when created her "Usagi Tsukino" alter-ego.
Remember Usagi Tsukino?
Yah, maybe her trademark phrase really seal the deal.



"Dengan kekuatan Cinta akan mendukungmu!"





OK. It's official.
Sakit Jiwa!

Ah sudahlah.
Like Bryan Adams said "I'm up on cloud number nine!"
It's beyond logical thinking.

Hey, It Is cloud number NINE!?
*grinning sperti orang bodoh.


***pesan moral: diatas hanya sepatah, dua patah, beberapa patah - kata yang sangat beyond realitas dari seorang yang kewarasannya saat ini sangat diragukan. Pikiran2 bodoh diantara gelapnya malam, sunyi rintik2 hujan di kemarau panjang ostrali, chopin dengan klasiknya Mazurka In B Flat dan suara mematikan Chris Martin dengan Fix You keparat itu. Indah.
Jangan pake logika deh.

A Lovely Retardation

Love is the only incident
An infatuation
Is this sweet manipulation?
Well, I was frightened myself
What is love?
It's a fine inclination
A lovely retardation
What is life but a reality vacation?
Indulging operation
What is love?
The worthiest damnation
Sweet temptation
What is love?

- I wake only to hear this scream.

The Riddle (You and I)

FYI, this what I chat about wif a friend minutes ago.
yes dear, it's you! who called me a siput! hiks.

Kinda irritating aint it? Knowing a snail only move in slow pace. geez.
I said nothing further intended to pursue. I mightve said it as a defense mechanism thingo. Tatuuuuuutt! hahaha!

you sed if you're here you'd be kepo (hehe!) for my sake. Hiks. Wish you really is HERE! and help out with this siput phase. =(

Honestly, this getting really boring. Not only that, I look silly like - All. The. Time.

This sucks.