4th November 2012

You know that movie Love Actually? I always remember that movie's monologue. The scene at the airport, it was past 9-11. Hugh Grant narrated: everywhere you see at the airport, people smiling or laughing seeing their friends/relatives/loved ones arriving or departing. people hugging and kissing. you will see that love is actually all around.

That bit of the story was true in my case.
29th october 2012, terminal 3 Soetta 2.15PM we bid our farewell. Unknowingly it will be our last hug, our last laugh, our last smiles, our last tease, our last happiness, our last kiss.

I wish you health and happiness that you always hoped for.
Venus satelite has evaporates, never more to spread their signals.

4th November 2012 Truths were spoken.

Truth hurts, but in the end happiness will prevail.
Adieu, Amor.

Closure

Siapa bilang lebih baik sakit gigi daripada sakit hati?
Meggy Z pasti gak kenal ponstan. gak punya dokter gigi.
Sakit hati? cuma ada waktu.
Sakit? ya terus aja sakit. 

Ketika memilih

"Biarkan cinta bicara dengan logika. Tidak seseru saat jatuh cinta memang.

Tapi dalam hidup terkadang tidak seru itu perlu."


@HilbramDunar

the best to end Ramadhan 2012

having just noticed today is the last day Ramadhan. I am most grateful that I just had the most fulfilling final day sahur.

nothing i can ask for more.

spent the night before takbir, just the two of us, iftar and sahur with the family.

I'm happy as I can be. Alhamdulillah for the wonderful, yet rocky, road we've had and will have.

til we meet to another Ramadhan. Insha Allah, together still.

We're aiming the same goal

End of last month, decision was made.

Us, to walk on the same path towards one beginning.

Insyaallah it's the best for the both of us. Regardless worries, concerns and doubts.

Can i move on with this plan? I'll make my best effort to work this out, together.

Yes you, let's walk this road hand-in-hand, dream the same reality. Just, you and i.

<3

Does happiness just around the corner?

This afternoon I suddenly reminded of my old dream.
The dream long forgotten.

Back in the glory of Melbourne, my life was simple.
Days gone by with one purpose in life, seeking happiness.
My ultimate goal.

That simple goal seems forgotten while I'm busy scrapping through chaotic Jakarta.
Then, he happened to appear out of nowhere as well.
Never say love cures all madness and happiness is a given. Nope, at least not in my love story.

Love is messy to my vocabulary.
Although Jason Mraz does say love is a beautiful mess, but I like things at its order. Including Love.

Him and I, paddling through murky water for seven long months. Together.
Sometimes, him alone and I sat back.
While my mind is full of consideration of one, two, three.
I'm forgetting one thing, my ultimate goal.
Happiness.

I should not think but one.
Will he be my happiness?
with all that he is.

Convincing myself is frustrating.
When I have the answer, happiness is just around the corner and up for grabs.

Thus Love, worry not.
For heart shortly convinced.
when time comes.

when complicated becomes uncertain

6 months.
it's nothing compared to what others have walked through.

the beginning was harmless. innocent. complicated.
as the road becomes long and winding, so is the journey.
we're heading towards the same aim, but when the road will end, I am not too sure.

This is when complicated becomes uncertain.
When the path ends, another journey will begin.

Am I ready to be on that journey?
with him, all of him.