a new perspective from here on end

so, the ending 2012 was a  ......
blessing in disguise.

my spiritual journey has just begun from that day on, despite all the 'gift' Allah has given me, I understood the purpose of it all.
Believing greatness will come out of this, was  very difficult to digest at the beginning.
Now I believe, eventually, slowly, I will be there.


Of all the secrets I carry  about his past, with anger and hatred I can destroy a person's life into lowest gutter.
But I fear, I fear that doing so won't bring me contentment. It could bring me to much lowest level than him.
I fear, revenge is a spiteful thing.

Instead, I wrap all of these inside and deliver them through my prayers.
Let Him work His fairness. 

Forgiving isn't easy but tired of anger and hatred.

Lessons learned. A life lesson, spiritual beginning and a never-ending patience.
I'm my mum's daughter, through and through.
Had to learn from the hard-way, but am grateful to eternity for this 'blessing'.

InshaAllah I will have my mum's never-ending patience and strong endurance. Amin..