Art, Music, Rock n Roll baby!

British Art and the 60s skin the Dutch Masters

I'm intrigued.
I know pictures, but I still can't interpret them.
Maybe it's true.. My brain only halved function.. The Right brain empowers the lefties.
Maybe art is just not my thing..
But they are beautiful interpretation of people's emotion, I supposed.

Love: It had to be You.

It first started...
lost in translation

Man: Because no man can be friends with a woman that he finds attractive. He always wants to have sex with her.
Woman: So, you're saying that a man can be friends with a woman he finds unattractive?
Man: No. You pretty much want to nail 'em too.

And it continues...
Denial

Man 1: When someone is not that attractive, they're always described as having a good personality.
Man 2: .... She could be attractive with a good personality, or not attractive with a good personality.
Man 1: So which one is she?
Man 2: Attractive.
Man 1: But not beautiful, right?

Then it reaches to final destination...
You Fall Madly In Love

I love that you get cold when it's 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle above your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend the day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.

If only life works the same way as those in movies. If finding soulmate is as easy as flipping a hand. If falling in love is hard enough and yet to find a friend who will console you at any time of day is more complex than it seems. But at the end of the day, to finally able to find all those in life is priceless. This journey in life is a one-way trip. Either you hate it or love it, there's no turning back. It's one-way nonreturnable ticket, take it or leave it. Oh, and it's a short-trip as well. So as a wiseman once said, find your happiness before your whole life started to flash back at you.

Blech. It's so easy to talk than to act isnt it? I'm one example of one socially awkward girl living in a mass crowded city. As kids nowadays, don't just tell me about it.. explain to me how!

memories...

  1. Maroon 5 - Songs about Jane
  2. Craig David - Slicker than average
  3. Australian Idol 2004 - MartyChanelDaniel
  4. Hanson - middle of nowhere
  5. Christina Aguilera - stripped!
  6. OST the Faculty
  7. Simple plan - no pads, no helmets, just balls

Songs can be your guide down to the memory lane. I have different memories embedded in each song with different friends, foes, and lovers. Some happy memories, they trully are. The list would go on til music has stopped to voice its' beautiful sound to the universe.

Pictures may define visually of someone's journey in life. However, music is much better interpretation of your inner soul. Only you that own the memories. Only you who knows the true happiness lies within. Isn't it a wonderful bliss?

Oh well... I'm just a girl so in love with music.


ps: Wallace and Gromit: the curse of were-rabbit is an amazing movie. The story line is simple and certainly different from all of those american's disney movies. It's very british.What's most awesome is that the whole character were made out of clay. Very clean and spotless, indeed! The production was made for years before it finally premiered in cinema in 2005. well dowh! everything is claymation. Imagine how fragile clay can be and they made a full length movie with it!
Two thumbs up.

tesselaar

Don't you just love tulips blooming at the early spring.. They really do brighten your days.

ps: Craigie davidie is promoting his new album. He's old-er. Well duh, he's now 24. Ah, we had some great memories together. LoL

Lovin' the days!

Monday Morning Rain is Falling...

It's Monday again.. blech. I know I said I love mondays, but turns out that's only for the entertainment. Overall, I don't quite like the day monday. It's the first day of the week which means I only have one week left to finish all aments. Time's ticking and yet I have not motivated to finish everything soon. Also today's weather forecast was sposed to be SUNNY! I woke up and look out the window, there they are, dark clouds covering the whole southbank area. Ma balcony also covered with water from the rain this early morning. It's still raining right now, but just few drizzles. Just about the same! today was not suppose to have drizzles, showers, or even rain. Today is all about sun, warm, and clear skies!! I had everything planned for today, but now's ruined. I hate going out when it rains. Besides, I had scheduled to finish ma 'decision tools' case study last saturday and sunday, but heck as you could read on sunday's postings, I absolutely did nothing that relates to aments and books. Today is already monday and I also have scheduled another aments to do but of course they are postponed a day later due to the laziness attack I had yesterday. All the schedules are screwed! hence, I'm too! I hate uni...

I can't remember when the time that I not complains about ma life. I made this life seems more dramatic than it actually is. People can say that life happens only once so make it worth to live. If only it would be that simple. I read somewhere that choices are given to man and we should be thankful to God for giving us such options. But, what if we took the wrong choice and unable to undo or move forward? Choices lead to more risks. People living the life would certainly be okay with risks. Theyre the risk-taking type. Maybe once I need a dare. A dare to live the life the fullest with half-full glass. Unlike this current life, which I presumed living life with half-empty glass. Perhaps only empty glass. What are those expressions mean anyway? Half-full and -empty glass? I can never understand.

Yesterday I had a talk. Afterwards, I kinda have this thought whether or not we'd end up like our parents? Honestly, I don't wanna be like parents. They can be very selfish at times and quite unreasonable. It's like the more older we -the kids- the more childish our parents are. It's sort of lifecyle, everything just moves round around and never stops til the end of time. We, kids, have to be reasonable enuff to take care of our mums and dads. As they get older, they become children themselves, with wants and needs that have to be fulfilled. I don't even like kids, but now seems as if I've already become the mother of a family. It's not easy you know. Maybe I used to be happy cos I'm able to running away from it. but now, I'm trapped and don't have the heart to runaway again. Tragic innit?

She seems to have her victory when someone shows hatred for him. She looks as if she won. I don't like that. I'm able to see but cannot speak it. She tries to be all friendly and forgiving... but only to show that she'd be more superior that he could ever do. I know his flaws and I certainly know her flaws. She ain't that angelic as well. She's no more superior to anyone as far as I'm concern. She don't own anyone anymore. She can't think she has won, can she? Unbelievable. She also asked me to find this someone that blatantly refused when asked to join him. Why now? Why does she want to find now? Why not years ago when all things were screwed up? Is it just because she found out this person has refused to be in colony with him? So it looks as if this person loyal to her and not him? That, money is not everything on this person's mind? Unlike the other one whom she now have certain hatred because this other person choses to have a decent job with good money rather than earning only a penny?

Sometimes, I don't like ma instant judgements lead me into. All of em are very negative and not constructive. They'd gave me headache all day. But hey, I can not speak them out, I certainly can write them down. It's about the same, isn't it? Oh well...

On diff topic,
I watched a preview for tonight's tv show.. the show entitled 'sharks on trial'. How comical is that?! I don't understand what happens inside people's mind these days...

And Few Hours Later...

Still have no result for any aments. Did nothing but watch DVD and er, that's it really. I'm SO Friggin' Lazzyy!!

Whenever I'm at home all day and not doing any aments, I blog. Ergo, I've posted 3 threads today (including this one). Is that pathetic?

But anyway,
Remember 'the Dukes of Hazzard' the TV series not the big screen. That was some hot movie back in those days. Honestly, I haven't see the remake of it yet but I already have certain doubts of the quality. The dukes of hazzard was originally about speed, car chasin', three cousins with massive talent for destruction, and yes of course hot pants and bikinis. I vaguely remembered the TV series, but I sure remembered the southern accent, the car chase and very boyish acts from the two dukes. Daisy duke was a major babe back then. I think this movie remake wanted to re-create the 'daisy duke' hype once more. The hot pants, the southern blonde chick, and of course spotless bikini bod.

What I regreted the most is the promo they brought for this remake seems all about daisy duke (i.e. jessica simpsons). Seriously, I ain't sayin' she not looks fine in those tiny red bikinis, au contraire she's very much a hottie in them, but cmon there are other means of that movie. Also, I read in one magz that the part of daisy duke was a toss between jessica and britney spears. However, close to production, britney was unable to have the daisy duke 'image'. So the part was spot on given to Ms. Simpsons herself. There's also the dukes soundtrack which is sung by Ms. Simpsons. The song is titled 'these boots are made for walking'. I reckon, the producers/writers made the movie (hence the song) with britney spears images on their minds, cos the movie and the song surely no match for jessica's image. Don't get me wrong, she looks V. good in those bikinis and hot pants. Her voice is also not bad for the song. However, Jessica is just not that type. Maybe she's trying to have new image, I dunno, but surely it's an extreme shift. The song 'these boots..' sounds lot like britney's music. Remember her album entitled 'britney' with example one of her single 'toxic'? That's awfully sound familiar as 'these boots..' don't you think? Too bad britney had to postpone her career. If she's still in the business and had nailed that 'daisy duke' part, it would be huge improvement for her career. She'd be, once more, the madonna of her time. Tough luck Ms. Spears.

I reckon the actors for the duke boys were perfectly casted. Johnny knoxville and seann william scott surely have the attitude as the dukes. They're the boys of boys. I really have to watch the movie and could mock entirely for miss. daisy's act. I want to know what's all the fuss about jessica's (man-made) buttocks. LoL. Seriously, I heard rumours that said those bottoms were pushed up with something underneath those pants. Pretty freaky huh?

I just hope that the movie is much more fun than the TV series. Hopefully, it's not all about Jessica's hot pants, pushed-up bottoms and huge knockers.

I leave you with piccies of the movie, both original version and the remake. Spot the difference?

  • 1979



  • 2005



Yeee Haawww !!!

Oh Lazy Me

Mid break doesn't motivate me at all to get any work done. Instead, it just brings me more lazier than ever! The idea of a break stimulates ma brain to lay low on the books and just go out day and night. Hence no studies and more fun. That's what mid-break means, doesnt it? Ergo there's this little voice inside that keeps urging to have a walk outside on such a lovely sunday and just go nuts. It surely the devil in me that'll drives me insane close to the end of sem. Need to kill the devil and bring out the angel. Why the good is always covered by the bad? Purely vanished and invisible over the evilness of being. Whatever that means.

Come on. just another month to go and you'll be facing a trippin' Four months break.. That'll be long enuff to get youre mojo back, won't it? Cmon.. What's a month compared to four whole frickin months??? Get the devil out of ya!!

Guilt

I feel guilty for ditching them everytime they have kindly asked me to join them. Something frightens me, maybe that's why I prefered to stay low. This may just be another perfect way to non-existent. It's been what? almost a year... This got to end. But how?

Spring break.. Woo hoo!!

Nah, that's only to fill up something for the title. The post here will not be about spring break. Well, not entirely.

Spring break starts very late this year, seriously. I will only have one last class after the break ends. Now, how's that a mid/spring break?!?! It almost the end of semester and they gave me a break??? dun think this counts as a break since all aments are due AFTER the break. Blech. Nice timetable btw! Cuppa days ago I counted all my 'left-over' aments. Guess how many are they.. 8! Yes people, EIGHT more aments to go. Dang. End of sem is not until 27 October but the final due date for the last ament is 11 Nov. Today is the 24th September, so it ain't that long way to the end now is it? I sort of finish one draft... Err, it's just a draft dumbass!

But nyways, nuff bout school stuff. It's not a good subject to focus on this lovely morning. Oh how weird is it to have me posting at 9 am in the morningg!! I can hardly wake up this early then again to actually alive enuff to write something. Ha! Well, not so weird considering I slept at 11 last night due to massive exhaustion.

Reason is because yesterday we went on a road trip to phillip island to watch the little pinguins!! They were these little cute things walking like drunken birds. LoL Unfortunately we were not allowed to take any photographs even before the pinguin parade started!! That much money and no memorable pictures to restored? Whatta rip-off!! Pinguin parade is basically little pinguins came out of the sea and nesting on their burrows behind the bushes. One thing that really irritated me the most is that they walked REALLY i mean EXTREMELY slow. Almost beat a group of turtles! How.Everr(!) the reason why they walked that slow at the beginning and faster soon after is becaue they were the wussi-est animals ever! They were terrified of seagulls. Logically, of course, there were seagulls all over the beach at night. Those pinguins have to cross the beach to reach the bushes and to get there they must walked pass hundreds seagulls. The reason they walked very slow when reaching the shore is, I reckon, first they must formed some sorta strategy to avoid seagulls and us 'the visitors', then they run as fast as they could to finally swamped in the bushes to be safe. Once got to the bushes, they find their burrows and nesting. Funny thing was there was a pinguin standing close on his burrow and was screaming so Loud. In front of him there was a lady pinguin. Why I knew that they were male and female pinguins, cos of soon after, well, there were voices. Very Loud, they kinda irritating. We came at the right season, to watch pinguins mate! Ha! According to the info at the pinguin centre, when they mate, they can be extremely loud and very RoWDY! O yeah baby wontcha cum in ma crib. LOL

The pinguins at phillip island were called little pinguins cos they are so damn frickin small!! Theyre about the same size as the seagulls. They smell extremly fishy as well. A friend of mine was very eager to squished one of the pinguin cos theyre so round and seemed quite chubby. Whilst for me, I was so impatient to see them walked like that, I just wanted to push them and roll them like a ball so they'd walked faster. People, these are the kind of acts that would eliminate each and every pinguins alive on the planet. Ha!

I will leave you with these cuties pinguinss... They were so darn cute I want to brought one home. (don't they remind you of joey's hugsy?)



Sick yet of pinguins?
Hokay let's move on to the next.

I read this girl's blog. She don't know I read it though. Never leave any comment on her page. yet after reading her postings for several months, I kinda have this feeling that she has an extreme issues with herself. She seems insecure and honestly, quite weird. She's proud of what she have achieved (which is lots) but the way she published her victories are somehow, again, weird. On her last posting she made this list, but to me that list seems as if someone is not giving 100% attention to her, she'd just presumed as they were not exist or she prefers to runaway. Maybe for her those are good ways to deal with things. Ha! Who am I to judge? I, however, feels that as if she's covering herself in this huge black roof on top of her. Although she talks about her being aggresive and very outspoken, but maybe deep down she did all that to cover what's real inside. Seems familiar? I wish I know her so that I could actually prove my speculations, cos all my judgements could be wrong. Maybe those she wrote are the actual personality she has. I'm no psychic anyways. So judgements based on no academic knowledge are very bias. Oh well..

sweetest goodbye

in love and hate feeling for maroon5. Always have been.
There are just too many memories hidden in all of their songs. Great memories.. but too sad to remember. I miss the past. It was indeed a sweetest goodbye. Adieu.

Man Drought

There's an absolute hillarious report on 'today tonight' about how aussie is lacking single men aged thirty-something. Women with the same age group are having difficulties on finding the 'One'. Whilst their biology clock keeps on ticking, the right Mr. Man have not yet come to their door step. You might say they're in deep desperation to settle down. Ergo, Today Tonight crew was there to help. The crew also asked an expert to statistically analyze where are the hiding caves of those potential Mr. Man. The expert found their hiding caves based on their suburbs location. I feel sorry for those men. Uh, on second thought, scratch that. I don't feel sorry one bit for them. Having given the report, I assume, men now knows that women are desperate for their love and affection. This wud result in their bloated arrogance on selecting their 'perfect' woman. Men would become very pleased to have the ladies throw themselves at 'em while they wouldn't need to move from their seats. I wonder if desperate women might lost their dignity? I guess time really do switch in a very fast pace.

Long before goats can gloat (................. what the?!?!!??)

Much more than ten years ago... the rules were not alike as today. As far my memories could remember, there were times when women were praised as goddesses. The world of men encircles around the ladies. Ladies were not meant to run around to catch the perfect match. Not only that, were they meant to have cat fights with the other man-hunters just because the rule's 'snooze you loose'? What in a bloody world do we live?? Maybe it is okay since long ago women always want to be treated equal as men... Maybe this is one of the consequences. Who knows?!


Ps: WHO THE HELL IS ARLISA ARDHIANI?!?!?! She sent me emails asking me to connect to namesdatabase.com. WHAT IN THE WORLD IS NAMESDATABASE.COM?!?!? It seems to be as another pointless website. I tried to send her (him?) email asking who she is. but there's a failure notice saying that the email address is unavailable? So weird. Just as reminder in the future, her email addy is arlisa_19@hotmail. So whoever owned the email addy, Lemme know!!

The weirdest thing!

I got free tram ticket! a daily ticket. How lucky am I! The reason is, the stupid machine on-board ate my money and I reported it to the driver. While stopping on Flinders station (which is the main station), there are some officers outside (u know, for daily check in). And, some people on the tram were very nice. They told me to inform the faulty at the railway station and claim ma money back. I thought, ah screw it. Too much trouble for a little penny. I listened to their advice without having any thought to actually took action on it. Not until, an officer came into the carriage and checked on the machine before he walked out the tram again. At that time I was just stood still and tried to copied the number on the machine. However some passangers told me to report this to those officers outside. I was quite hesitant but Oh Whatta heck. Those people have been so nice to gave me those info. I walked off the tram and reported the faulty to them. Evidently, they knew that the machine was out of service and guess what.. They gave me a daily ticket as a replacement for ma money. They gave me a ticket worth 6 bucks! One thing they didn't know... I only put in 70 cents into the machine before it finally broke down. Ha! How bout that officers! Luckily they don't asked how much money have I put into the machine. *Phew*

But I like the fact that they are very responsible in their job and don't asked a lot of questions when customers are in the right side of the law.

On a lighter note, I watched 'charlie and the chocolate factory' today. One comment... A-M-A-Z-I-N-G!! The cinematography is SO Tim Burton and his 'big fish'. Very fairy tale and full-on imagination. After watching the movie, I'm SO in love with Johnny Depp. He is So A-W-E-S-O-M-E!! (feels like an idiot spelling all these words). I haven't watched the old version of 'willy wonka and the chocolate factory' so cannot compare between the two. However I spose that the old version has better story compared to the new one. Why? Old version is musical, it ought to be better than the commercial version. By commercial, I meant the new version. It don't change my impression of Johnny depp as willy wonka though. He is very weird for a wonka. Maybe wonka is weird? Hmm better see the old version soon.

OH! another bizzarre moment of today is that I almost saw cameron diaz on the cinema today! There was a premiere of her latest movie 'in her shoes' screening at that very cinema. She ought to come with toni collete at 6.45 pm. Whilst I was out of the cinema around 6.20 pm. People stood at every spot they could reach. They were waiting anxiously for Ms. Diaz. I wanted to wait and see her as well but there were just too many people lined up on every side of the main rim of the mall. Hm, can't get the picture? Well, you know that most malls were built in almost like a tube, which from every level you could see down to the main stage at the ground level? That's where people were waiting today. I tried to wait for several minutes but that didn't last long. Ma stomach needed more attention than to wait Ms. Diaz to come. LOL So there I went straightaway for a jap cuisine. A little regret not to wait patiently for Ms. Diaz before went to that jap place. For one thing, I've never ever seen any real live hollywood celeb before. To live in Australia is another chance to actually meet someone famous. I will definitely not gonna see any hollywood celeb back in ma hometown. Heck, I can't even imagine it. The reason I wasn't quite excited to wait for Ms. Diaz is cos of ma sis. She's not that fun when it comes to things like this. She's not that fun to NOT be uptight. This made me, not enthused to do anything ridiculous and out of control, which equals... double uptights! hfff

Oh well... today was fun. I bought 2 clothes as well! pink bolero and green skirt. Ha! theyre no match to each other but theyre cheap. So no worries. :)

ini... itu... dan lain lain.

Don't feel like writing anything... well, I have loads in ma mind for the past week.. yet I don't feel like sharing them to anyone. Not to worry, they are not of those significant thoughts (Do I ever think of anything imperative? Doubtful!).

I'm gettin' tired of alive. Don't you? Not that I'm saying I wish I was dead. Heck no. It's just that there are one too many unjustified disturbances in life that are quite devastated to compromise. I don't want in five years time to glance back to the past and see nothing but debris of shattered beings and misconstrued sets of beliefs. I don't want to look at the times when the earth is just getting older and yet not wiser somehow. I can't help but to wonder when will judgement day comes? Do we not allowed to have such thought? I ain't trying to feel mellow at this gorgeous time of day. I just thought that maybe there are excessive living beings crammed in this small rounded planet. I wonder if mars is already open for public?

I watched michael buble on tv last night ( Yes, I do realise it's a complete diff topic from earlier, but Do I give a fuck? Hell no!). He said he has chicken legs with big feet, and he wore pointy shoes. Boy, do men nowadays have girly sense of fashion, don't they? Men wearing way too pointy shoes, what do they want us girls to think eh? Pointy... Something? LOL Last night there was an award show for AFL players. The show was actually held just few blocks away from my apartment. The place is one of the prestigious entertainment centre in the city called Crown. They always have awards and such, so there are always loads of celebrities come in and out from crown. Although I often go there yet I have not walk pass any celeb. How weird is that?! Well, let me tell you. It ain't that peculiar considering I have none knowledge whatsoever of Australian Celebs. All I know are those of most well-known celebs. For instance: Bert newton (morning talk show), Kochi (news show), ROVE (tuesday talk show, he's waay famous, and ridiculously hillarious!), thirsty merc (but only familiar with the frontman cos he's got a freeky hairdo), andrew G and James mathison (thanks to aussie idol), and several blokes from 'neighbours' whom their names I'm not familiar of. Hmm... having these written down, I realise that they're all men celebs. Wonder why? *grin* Isn't aussie always renowned for their women? Hmm... Kangaroo perhaps, but women?? *scratches head* Oh yes, Gretel killeen (spell?) of big brother. Thats it! LOL C'mon ladies.. kick some arses will ya!

Other bits of entertainment, do you think eric cartman has potential to be a ruler? hm, I'm not saying hitler, but maybe Bush's replacement as a starter? Heck that'll be jolly! He has the talent to be a stubborn ass and everything has to be done according to what's right to cartman. He's a pain in the ass but you've gotta love him eventually. At some points, he twists our first impressions of him and able to reverse our speculations of his attitude. He's a devil in disguse.. that's what he is. But the devil I love. LMAO

Beyond tomorrow
.... is how we always imagined of the future. Although impressive gadgets and/or technologies always appear on the show, however, in reality they may not be applicable or even implemented. Mass production, I mean. It is still an entertaining show to watch, but careful, too much imagination can be a catastrophic agenda for the current life as well. Confuse? Ha! I'm too. I'm just writing shitloads. Dont have any idea why anyone wants to read these (esp you! whom currently reading.LoL)

One question
: Do technologies able to numb the nation?
Why I ask, you asked? Our ancestors don't have computers and all cool gadgets like we have today, still, they have made remarkable inventions. I bet people today only know how to implement those ideas into something more 'gadgety' (a.k.a CooL!). If you give more attention, engineers and doctors are only establish new innovations that will eventually ruin the existence of living beings in the universe. They wanted to know too much of everything. Most comical investigation they've always try to do is to find the essense of God. Duh. Too much queries in life are meant to be unknown, I suppose. But yes, I do think technologies nowadays have numb the nations. Brain does not function as it was years ago. Who do we blame? You, Them, or Ourselves? Think about it.
(or not, whatever.)

a note to self

dearest don't get big-headed yet. the end of this journey still yet unkown. The path is somehow vague. Whatever comes up, must come down eventually. If you think youre up now, you'll get dissapointment soon after. Be careful. Watch your step. Don't get cocky. Relax...
Confidence is good but don't exceed the limit. Everything in excess will not always end up good.
Careful dearest... it's a long journey to glorious wisdom..

ha!

They sed I'm nice. I'm moody. I'm overly introvert. I'm sensitive. I'm fun to be with. I'm a good listener. I'm mad but to some limits. and they also sed.. I can be mature at times.
Those are what they see in me. What they think of me. True or False.. I would not know. Should I just be the person from those social perceptions of mine?
I wanna be different. I wanna be a person that those people judgements become completely mistaken. I don't wanna be an open book whom people could just look at me and *boom!* they just knew who I really am through the glare of my eyes.
Maybe I wanna be someone that I am not. Maybe, I'm running away again when I'm about to reach ma own destiny. Maybe, I know nothing of ma own self. Maybe, I need someone to guide along side of me. Maybe, I dont know anything of everything. Hmm.. All is a possibility, isnt it?
I'll just wait for the right passage to come along. I'm just gonna walk casually as if nothing bothered me for its entirety.
Gah! another ramblings nonsense !!!!

PS: I hate hope floats! It reminds me too much of me in the past. It potrays the agony, misery and despair of not just one person but also the loved ones. I, somehow, understands that things were -prolly still is- difficult to do solo. The resemblance is uncanny. We are just trying to survive this life. Maybe not together at first, but definitely we're trying to not be separated at the end. Blood is thicker than water, isnt it aye? From this day 'til the end of time.

Chick or Chic Lit?

I've read almost every Meg Cabot's book. Here's the list of her Book I've read so far:

Princess Diaries 1 - 6
Boy meets Girl
The guy next door
Every boy's got one

Cabot's books are really easy to follow and have quite interesting writing approach. She uses emails, notebooks, electroning messenger, diaries, and other common ways of writing journals. It's like youre drawn into your own daily life. As if youre reading your own journals with bits of laughter, happiness, bitter jealousy, and every other emotions of life. Cabot's books are very light, in terms of story lines and plots. Yet it's very relaxing to read all of her books. She could easily makes us to dream again about fairy lands with all the casts are somehow as ordinary as our own little life. Although the love she brought to life is not always be the love that exist in reality. Yet every book needs a happy ending, dont they?

PS: today's is september 11. Exactly four years ago I was running on my way to uni. It was my first Ugrad year first semester at Uni. I got on the bus that morning, jammed in between other fellow students and they were all have newspaper on their hands. I didn't really notice that the massive calamity had happened the night before in the other part of the world. I just walked casually to my lecture theatre. It was not until the break when me and some other friends walked into campus centre to notice that every TV in that building were switched on! There was the breaking news of America's under attack in red bold font. Me, who was still an absolute clueless, asked a friend of what was happening. He told me about the tragic disaster happened approx midnite eastern standard time. We stood there for few minutes to get updates on the news. People were just sat under the TV whilst eating their lunch. All eyes were on the news. No one moved. It was the horrific tragedy we all never could've expected. It was the first of many to come. Yet all we can do thereafter is to hope for a better future cos of what we are but human with no power greatly than Allah SWT.

just musings...

I didn't realize this 'til last night... all my life, i've always been spoon-fed. I never have ma own thoughts. Ever and prolly never will. They told me what to do and how to achieve grade A. They never told us to just explore our own minds about any topic in-hand. At times as today, I know I've been spoon-fed all of my life and I just wanna be free.. But others just not realize it yet. I have no other choice but to follow. I'm such a pushover!

I wonder is it obnoxious to speak out my minds? Will they think that I'm tryin to be smart-ass? A foolish mistake took part last night. We sat there likesilent cows and none have any thoughts. not one! I spoke, there were none response. I shrugged. What else was I spose to do? I cant bear the fact that theyre SO slow at running things done. When things like this happen, I started to feel awkward and think as if the reason for our delays is because I chose the wrong topic. The topic that they have absolutely no knowledge watsoever, whilst I have some. Does this mean that if I speak out ma thoughts, I'd be a smart-ass? I hate the fact that theyre talking something in other language that I have no familiarity of. They cud easily talking about me, right in my face!! yet I dont realize it. Thats not NOT possible. but hey, I cant just give 'em such quick accuses, can I?

I'm stuck when I wanna be liberated! Ma minds are locked inside and Cannot break out free. Merely, I have to take consideration of others. blech!
Please, I have enuff of compromises! Yet I dare not to shut out..

PS: I watched the news yesterday.. funny how they responded like this "we're trying to help the living, not the dead". You know, how that seems ridicule to grasp. If you leave the decesead floated and strewn on the water, wudnt they affect the living too, eventually? When that happens, what more excuses wud you say?
Whilst, Above the water, on top of the bridge.. officers look with only a mere glance and instead of helping others, they took memories of this unforgettable massive hurricane through their digital lenses. When theyre asked for their responsibilities, they sed no authorities have been given to them. Aah, technicalities. Minds have rotten when the legal laws has empowered everything, including people's conscience.
~ Isnt it bizzarre to notice both calamities happened on the month of September?

Welkom Spring!

SPRING Is HEEREEE!!
flowers blooming. Warm windy breeze. FlipFlops are on baby!!
I love the fact that I dun hav to wear black coats anymore. Tucked in and cant hardly breathe. Suffocated.
NOW, I'm Freeeeeeeeeeee!!! colours are everywhere.

on diff topic... (gonna speak bahasa)
US sekarang lagi dilanda bencana. Banjir. Mereka kelabakan untuk menanggulanginya dan bantu korban2 yang stuck di kota new orleans. Herannya, government kelimpungan nyari solusi. Disaat seperti ini, negara yang katanya termakmur, terkaya, terPINTAR sejagad raya bisa kelimpungan ngadepin bencana alam sebesar ini? oh come on bush.. katanya, elo mampu untuk segalanya? dengan segala keangkuhan elo dan dulu hanya bisa memandang kami2 dengan sebelah mata. Sekarang? Gak segitu gampangnya kan menanggulangi azab Tuhan? Kenapa disaat seperti ini, kekacauan di negara kalian sndiri, tiba2 kalian gak bisa mikir satu cara terHANDAL pun untuk nyelesain secepatnya untuk ngindarin banyaknya korban? Saat ini knp tiba2 otak kalian membeku?

Mereka ada lah negara paling berkuasa sejagad raya.. dan sudah 2 kali bencana terbesar terjadi di negara kalian.. Apakah ini pertanda kiamat sudah dekat? Layak kah gue menanyakan ini semua? Apa gue termasuk inconsiderate human being? Ah ntah..

What element are you?

Hydrogen (H)
Lucky Number 1


You are a real lightweight, Hydrogen. You don't even have a neutron most of the time - what kind of an effort is that???

Your acid tongue can get you in real trouble, but to your credit, you're happy with your own company. But even then you can be a little volatile.

Like most honours, your No.1 position on the Periodic Table comes with a certain responsibility. In your case, try to strike a balance between nobility of gas and earthiness of metal. And for Pete's sake, try and hang onto your electron - there's nothing more off-putting than a naked proton.

Famous Hydrogens
Britney Spears
Peter Garrett
L. Ron Hubbard

Ideal Partner
You're a compulsive relationship seeker Hydrogen. While you swing with the best of them (ah, those wacky halogens) you're in your element with electron-grubbing Oxygen. And frankly you two deserve each other. On the bright side, if things don't work out with the Big O, there'll always be another Hydrogen in reach for some therapeutic self-love. (Nitrogen will do at a pinch).

Ada yang bilang begini....

"theres no stupidity, theres only lack of study"
-R.D

Ha ha good one for me.
And I just realize it this past week, I aint stupid.
Sometimes, Im just overly underestimate myself.
Confidence is still in the box.. Not quite yet ready to be open, i spose.
so yeh..
but that one really got into me.
great quote.

PS: sorry to the person who ACTUALLY wrote the quote, I took it without permission. Stealing u might say. but no worries, no one read this blog 'cept close ones. the quote stays with me. *fingers cross* just incase YOU read it and i dont link YOU for the quote.. reason is, I cant -and dont wanna- link to those unknown others. well, thats off the chest, cheerios darl.

What you do see is sexy

I reckon everywhere the rule is only one. And I hate that!
Not here nor there... there's that one implicit rule.
And I loathe that!
*sigh* I guess envious dubious sinister thoughts that has the power.
Fuck it!

About:

learning process about inner-self.
Ultimate revelation.
Unleashed.
I dare say, This might be Me

Just because...

I can't get enuff. I'm addicted. Intoxicated.
They never fail to lighten my days...
I thought of almost forgetting how to smile..
Because of them.. Now I'm smiling.
.... to have butterflies everytime I see them.
.... to feel all over the moon just listening to them voices.
They reminded me, How to be happy, once more.
And I'm lovin' the days. Because of them..

Samar-samar terdengar lantunan lagu keith martin * Because of you, my life has changed, thank you for the love and joy you bring... Because of Youuuuuu *

me and the rest of the universe

It seems I'm not the only one who always pondering on what the unknown destiny will come out to be. I, however, prefers to keep it to self rather than to speak out loudly or even sotto voce. Theyre living the life. Just like me. Theyre held up at the crossroads to the unknown path. Just like me. Lost inside the jungle of uncertainties. Just like me. Adrift into the midst hurricane of the unknown.. just like me.
Choices are to be made certain. I cannot yet decide, Can You?

Logo

I watched video hits this morning and was quite surprised to see Bon Jovi's recent video 'have a nice day'. Man, dont it reminds u of 'wheres the love' BEP? mass crowd, the logo, ppl put the logo everywhere in the city. Simple things that are quite resemble BEP's where's the love. Yeh not all of them are same of course, the music is totally diff. duh.
Althou, I think thats a good come back from bon jovi. U know, using the 'have a nice day' logo. People are easily attracted to simple logos. Back to BEP, people remember BEP from the where's the love logo - question mark inside black square [?]. That's their trademark. Now Bon Jovi also got one. Supposedly they need the logo. Bon Jovi I mean. They need a come back logo so tdays generation would recognize the band. They need a trademark that kids tday can easily grasp. Good approach I'd say. But the logo seems bit tacky. Somehow.
.

The Damned Nations!

Living in a country which always has sinister judgements about American culture make me realize how my native country has overly absorbs everything of American. you get what I mean? In here, they have their characteristics and own identity. I do realize this doesn't always apply to EVERYONE in the country. But you get what I mean.. like in here, the 'attitudes' are diff. Theyre not overly distressed on not following the lifestyle of homeboys/girls at the US of A. Of course there are some, but when you check clearly, there are major diffs. And I like that. They have identities.

On the other hand, We -as in my native country- dont have. Especially those who live in big cities. American culture have ripped off our own culture. We have none else. The life of our generation has become the MTV generation. NOiSE! NOiSE!
I'm not saying that We have to shut ourselves from the outside world, but let's do have some boundaries on grasping what's need to be grapsed and to walk through. Let's have some identities, so that we can too be proud for who we are and say to them, This is Us, This is Who we Are.

You get what I mean? There are just one to many American culture embodied in our everyday life. We've lost our identity as a person and eventually as one country .

[Heck, we're just wanna be COOL like 'em. Those who disagree, they're not down with it. Ain't cool man.]

Ah, the MTV generation. I'm so glad MTV came to our life and left us undoubtly impotent to accrue intelligence. Too bad we've lost our intellectualities to 'em, not to mention, our dignity and identity as a person, hence a nation. I'm so sad I think I wanna cry. *in case you cant sense it, am being sarcastic*

pluses and minuses

I can't work under pressure, that I just realised. Which is not good.
I can be very good at things I have interests in, which is good.
Not exactly a quick learner, but always eager on learning things new.. Good and Bad?
Sometimes I do listen to people, just not when the pressure thing comes up.. so still bad aint it?
I can be easily distracted when supposedly to get some works done.. very not good, indeed.
Sometimes I can have great ideas or thoughts and the likes. So, thats good right?
I dare not speak out when things are not fully certain. Confidence is a kickback. But it's still on the to-do list. Not good.

Thats all I can think of now.
...Somethings you might wanna know. Althou doubt that you would. Whatever.

sendiri dalam kegelapan

sendiri itu tidak enak teman!
Dinamika hari-hari ini sepertinya sudah pernah dilalui.. di terjang.. dan di musnahkan. Ya, Sepertinya..
Kesalahan adalah hal yang mutlak untuk seorang manusia. Dan untuk yang satu itu, dia mengaku salah...
Tidak pernah ada musnah dalam kamus itu. Semuanya hanya bersembunyi sementara, menepi di sudut hitam yang gelap. Menunggu untuk kembali meracuni kebahagian seorang perempuan. Dibalik kehidupan suram itu, dia berhasil berdiri kembali dan menggapai apa yang telah lama hilang. Untuk sesaat, dia bahagia walau tidak dalam konteks yang seutuhnya. Tapi, dia tersenyum dan tertawa.
Untuk sesaat, semua sudah cukup untuknya. Untuk sesaat, dunia ini terasa ramai. Ya, hanya sesaat..

Tidak semua perjalanan itu indah.
Kebahagiaan itu terhenti disaat dia menghindar. Beranggapan dirinya terkucil dari kerumunan manusia. Mereka tertawa Dia pun tertawa. huh palsu. Pergi merantau dalam segala ketidakpastian, hanya untuk mencari kebahagiannya yang hilang. Untuk sesaat, dia merasa telah menemukannya. Ya, hanya sesaat.. Lagi-Lagi.

BERHENTI !!
Dunia berhenti berputar. Dengan satu langkah itu, kembalilah dia ke kehidupannya yang lalu. Kegelapan yang telah menepi, kembali lagi menguasai jiwa dan raganya. Seperti kanker yang lama hinggap di organ seorang manusia. Seperti parasit yang mematikan.

Pilihan. Ya, hanya itu yang dapat manusia lakukan. Hidup ini lebih berarti untuknya atau selamanya berada di sudut kegelapan itu? Pilih.

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